Rustage, HalaCG - Trust My Sound lyrics

I just feel like I'm a fluke
I Know that I'm lucky
But Jesus their must be a reason
I'm hating the shit that I do
My work is the rope at my neck like a noose
I build myself up just to watch it go loose
Cus I'm just a baby
I can't walk in or fit in these adult shoes

I'm rambling
Annoying can't handle it
Tell me shut the fuck up I can manage it
I got no drive, I'm just living my life
But I'm losing the passion
To improve my talent
It's hard to keep up with
The people that care
Fabvl or DPS I don't compare
I see the love that they have for the music
For me I'm just stressed and
I'm full of despair

I can't be giving 100%
But I know if I don't
I'm embarrassed to share
I was the first that the reason I'm here
I Don't look to the future
Cus that makes me scared

I hate my voice and the shit that I say
Bet that you're hearing the 80th take
I hate myself I just get in the way
But I Open the file and I do it again

I used to think what one in a hundred said
Was what I was
'Cause I trusted no one would see
Past what I could not

But we could talk about anything
Anything
Yea
And I could do about anything
Anything
Yea
I still would think these thoughts
But know deep down I'll come around
I've learnt I've earned this spot and
I've learnt to trust my sound

This was thing I was dreaming of
I cannot keep it up
I've made a lot of new friends but
I'm sorry I've struggled to keep in touch

I think I've seen enough
And honestly I think it seems to much

I'll never be happy I guess
What I thought was my solace now eats me up

It is so obvious
I don't think any my peers like
The work that I do
I see the way that they hype up each other
But they would not care If
I didn't have views

They would not care If I didn't have views
I'd be forgotten, so tell me the truth
"Yes you got fans
But the people who know what they're saying
Ain't saying a thing about you"

I know I'm pathetic
It just reconfirms the things I fear
They don't need to like me
It just makes my situation clear

Working for a decade
And they're better in a couple years
Why do I still bother
Please just move along and leave me here

I used to think what one in a hundred said
Was what I was
'Cause I trusted no one would see
Past what I could not

But we could talk about anything
Anything
Yea
And I could do about anything
Anything
Yea
I still would think these thoughts
But know deep down I'll come around
I've learnt I've earned this spot and
I've learnt to trust my sound