Rustage, Ben Schuller - Virtue's Last Reward lyrics
[Rustage, Ben Schuller - Virtue's Last Reward lyrics]
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
Only started rapping 'cause somebody
Said I couldn't
Kept on making music 'cause
Nobody said I shouldn't
Never thought I'd make it but
Nobody said I wouldn't
When you've done it long enough you
Get out what you put in
I was never special but I had
Passion and put the work in
All I made was garbage I
Didn't need to be perfect
It is kinda freeing to know
That you don't deserve it
Did this for myself so I
Didn't need to be nervous
Did this for myself so I
Didn't need to be hurting
Focused on the music and
Everything I was learning
I was having fun with it
Never needed a purpose
Earnest, I was just happy
They could've heard it
Burn it
I feel that feeling has been deserted
I'm sick of making music
Sick of feeling like I'm worthless
Sick of staying up all night
And stressing bout my words
And now I'm sick of all the pressure
That's rising up to the surface
I've been drowning in the silence
Of a bad dream
They all love it but don't
Know a thing about me
Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
Nothing's changing
They are moving on without me
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
I don't even listen to other music
That people make
I can't help comparing and driving
My fucking self insane
All my peers around me keep
On pushing hard to innovate
I'm just so exhausted but I'm
Trying not to feel ashamed
Feel ashamed
Fuck, I should be happy but I
Cannot help to feel this way
Every night it feels the same
Every night I'm struggling to live up
To the bar they raised
Every word I write I hate
I don't even feel like I belong on stage
Shut down the voice in my head
I should just do this for me
(I should just do this for me)
I do not know what I want
I do not know what I need
(I do not know what I need)
People keep giving me love
And they want me to succeed
(And they want me to succeed)
I have no drive anymore
I do not have any dreams
(I do not have any dreams)
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
Where did the fun go
Where did the joy after making a song go
How did it get so aggressive and cutthroat
Heart is not in it
I'm stopping the blood flow
Stopping the clock
Stopping the journey I feel like I'm lost
Stopping to think of the things I've forgot
I cannot be who I am with
This weight on my back
I will never be someone I'm not
I've been drowning in the silence
Of a bad dream
They all love it but don't
Know a thing about me
Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
Nothing's changing
They are moving on without me
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
Woaah
It's my last reward
Woaah
It's my last reward
Only started rapping 'cause somebody
Said I couldn't
Kept on making music 'cause
Nobody said I shouldn't
Never thought I'd make it but
Nobody said I wouldn't
When you've done it long enough you
Get out what you put in
I was never special but I had
Passion and put the work in
All I made was garbage I
Didn't need to be perfect
It is kinda freeing to know
That you don't deserve it
Did this for myself so I
Didn't need to be nervous
Did this for myself so I
Didn't need to be hurting
Focused on the music and
Everything I was learning
I was having fun with it
Never needed a purpose
Earnest, I was just happy
They could've heard it
Burn it
I feel that feeling has been deserted
I'm sick of making music
Sick of feeling like I'm worthless
Sick of staying up all night
And stressing bout my words
And now I'm sick of all the pressure
That's rising up to the surface
I've been drowning in the silence
Of a bad dream
They all love it but don't
Know a thing about me
Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
Nothing's changing
They are moving on without me
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
I don't even listen to other music
That people make
I can't help comparing and driving
My fucking self insane
All my peers around me keep
On pushing hard to innovate
I'm just so exhausted but I'm
Trying not to feel ashamed
Feel ashamed
Fuck, I should be happy but I
Cannot help to feel this way
Every night it feels the same
Every night I'm struggling to live up
To the bar they raised
Every word I write I hate
I don't even feel like I belong on stage
Shut down the voice in my head
I should just do this for me
(I should just do this for me)
I do not know what I want
I do not know what I need
(I do not know what I need)
People keep giving me love
And they want me to succeed
(And they want me to succeed)
I have no drive anymore
I do not have any dreams
(I do not have any dreams)
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
Where did the fun go
Where did the joy after making a song go
How did it get so aggressive and cutthroat
Heart is not in it
I'm stopping the blood flow
Stopping the clock
Stopping the journey I feel like I'm lost
Stopping to think of the things I've forgot
I cannot be who I am with
This weight on my back
I will never be someone I'm not
I've been drowning in the silence
Of a bad dream
They all love it but don't
Know a thing about me
Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
Nothing's changing
They are moving on without me
I paved my way to the top, so what
I don't even know what it's all for
I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
My virtues paid, it's my last reward
Woaah
It's my last reward
Woaah
It's my last reward