Rx Papi - A Man Apart lyrics

Momma say I'm the spittin'
Image of my daddy
Deep down, I know she wish she never had me
They ain't had faith in me
When I started rappin'
I can straight drop, rerock and rewrap it
Everyday heavy, think about is suicide
My momma kick me out, she chose love over me
Then wonder why I don't put
Her before the street
Streets showed me everything I need to see
I seen my daddy on the concrete
For so many nights, I couldn't go to sleep
Nowadays, Auntie boo talking to
Me in my sleep
Ain’t nobody gon' love me like you love me
I was dirty as shit back in thirty-three
Now thе trap jump like
Larry Bird thirty-three drac' go off
Burn a nigga in the third degree
My auntiе don’t like me and I don't know why
She can’t look me in my eyes
Let alone say "Hi"
Shit hurt but I never let
It fuck with my head
I blame you for my big cousin bein' dead
All a nigga ever needed was a place to rest
Now he got a permanent place to rest
Why the fuck you wanna show so much love now?
You ain't love him when he was thuggin'
Don't love him in the ground
When I die, don't come to my funeral
Don't hug my mother
Don't try and soothe her
They don't even know what the
Fuck I be doin'
Try and change everybody life wit' the music
My momma said, "Baby boy
You stress too much"
"Just like yo dad, you do too much"
But whatever a nigga do is never enough
My sister told me, "I believe in you"
"Keep yo foot on they neck
What you need to do" i said
"I never thought I'd hear them
Words come from you" she said
"I don't give a fuck what
They say about you"
"Just know I'm always ridin'
Won't play about you"
I love baby cuz like my baby brother
That's cuz but I call him my baby brother
There ain't nothin' in this world that
We won't do for each other
Play wit' 'em if he want, bitch
I will bury your mother
I told the Grim Reaper to take me home
You ain't gon' give me a
Ride then leave me alone
I stared death in the face
So many God damn times
Stood ten toes wit' 'em every God damn time
Took three percs tryna calm my God damn mind
My grandma think I lost my God damn mind
I know I'll break her heart into pieces
If I ever told her what's
On my God damn mind
'Stead I hold it down like everything fine
'Cause they say things get
Better in due time
Well I hope it do happen in due time
Before I get locked and have to do time
Treat me like a outcast, wanna single me out
Bullshit back-to back
Still ain't bringin' me down my own fam
They don't like seein' my 'round
It's crazy
My family probably think I'll rob 'em
They act funny with me then I
Be ready to rob 'em
Don't get me wrong, that's my family
I'm not gon' rob 'em
But if I did rob 'em
It wouldn't be a problem
'Cause I never did nothin' wrong to nobody
My momma asked me why I don't be talkin'
'Cause when I talk they think I'm retarded
I be stuck in deep thought quite often
It's seven percs left, I might off 'em
They ain't gon' be happy 'til they
See me in a coffin
Or stuck in a wheelchair, not walkin'
I remember my grandma lied on
Me for no reason and still, to this day
I wanna know the reason
They labeled me as shiesty and greazy
I'm slidin' for my dog whenever he need me
Seen Tito in my dreams like a day ago
He said, "No matter what, cuz
Just play your role"
Shit fucked me up, I woke up sweatin' bad
Looked in the mirror, all I saw was my dad
I blinked and BK was behind my back
I blinked one time and everything went black
I opened my eyes, I'm bloody as shit
This the second time this shit happen again
Got me lookin' for cuz
Like "Where he went?"
Can't find pops, he gone inna wind
This shit ain't right
Somebody playin' with my head
Seen Auntie boo at the end of my bed
Been eleven years since she been dead
But every day
That shit still fuck with my head
She had cancer, layin' in that hospital bed
Her last request was "Can
You hold my hand?"
I be goin' through problems
You will never understand
'Cause I never even reached out for her hand