Sabrina Carpenter - Forever … (is a long time) lyrics

I spent a long time
Watering a plant made out of plastic
And I curse the ground for growing green
I spent a long time
Substituting honest with sarcastic
And I curse my tongue for being mean
Weightless, breathless restitute
Motionless and absolute he cut me open
Sucked the poison from an aging wound
Now fifty thousand walking deads
Would cower at this small brunette
It's a nice surprise knowing six feet high
Would reach and grab the moon if I should ask
Or just imply that I want
You to be more light
So I could look inside his eyes
And get the colors just right
Just right, just right just
But love built, God built provincеs
Built calluses, break promises
'Causе I could never hold a perfect thing
And not demolish it
What am I thinking? What does this mean?
How could somebody ever love me?
Talk to your man
Tell him he's got bad news coming