Sadistik - November lyrics

Sometimes, I can't handle the cold
Ill break another heart too fragile to hold
Love dies, I'm standing alone
Painting false hopes is a habit I've grown
Come find, why I said I don't love you
And instead I was humbled and
Content with the struggle
That you gave me, and said that I was crazy
Words grew to chains and love became safety
I saw trust until I lost the view
And then I lost faith in us like I always do
I refused, to complement your weakness
Through all our ups and downs
Til I was sea-sick
Flashbacks I remember so well, we both held
In November, when the snow fell
But that changed, you were not a friend to me
I distorted and soon I lost identity
And when we fought it I
Tried to break the innocence
You said lies, and I became a hypocrite


You tried to hold the sadness
When you grabbed tight
(But, I moved on from the
Shadows of our past life)
You said you couldn't live if I ran away
But part of me died, anyway
When I had to stay
In a storm that I saw in groundview
And I couldn't find the I
(eye) , it was all about you

Year One! I felt the dear sun
A brand new hope before the tears come
Year two! I see In clear view
Ashamed of myself when I am near you
Year three! I watch the stars fade
Im a zombie whos walking through a heartache
Year four! You're forever away and the sun
Now shines as my memories fade

All the feelings I have are hard to word
I can't see the problem
My vision starts to blur
Into an image of a violent struggle
Of a slow suicide since the time I loved you
Id, gladly die if you'd pacify
But, you need too many things
That I can't provide, so
You looked for it inside another's arms
Lied through ya teeth and
Cried that nothings wrong
(It didn't stop) all the cryin in public
Or telling me I'm not the
Only guy you were fuckin!
But, I gave in to all my fears instead
The only thing that ran more than me
(were the tears you shed)
When you told me you cut inside ya flesh
You're depressed and you'd rather die instead
I could feel my heart tear to bit's
(The first time I've cried ever
Since my parents split)
And I knew, there was no you and I
I kissed you goodbye, it felt like suicide
Or a bond that was made to sever
When I turned my back on you
And wouldn't face the weather
And for a moment
It felt like nothing mattered
There's givers and there's takers
And you're just the latter
I needed help but I got a struggle
When I fell to pieces you
Couldn't solve the puzzle
(We wept in puddles) til we were lost at sea
(With regretful struggles) and a
Faded promise ring
Your hands were full cause you
Seemed to hold grudges
While I chased both of
Our dreams through rosebushes, in November

I couldn't think to hold a single hope
So I pressed on my luck
Until my fingers broke
I'm treading steps through quicksand
Of past love to find closure from ice
Shoulders and hands touch
And my mind is still
Plagued with the fragrances
Of pain and bliss
And all the things you made me grip
When Id watch ya face with teary eyes
And I had to hurt myself
So I could feel alive, but
I found a place where the
Weather is much better now
In greener pastures
Where the rain is never out
And ya face is replaced by another
November's leaves stay
But have changed for the summer
(and my) hope meddles (where I) go settle
In the line that blurs from
Love to rose petals and the silence hurt
So I just followed through
On a beaten street
Never reaching peaks which I saw in you
And now I see that you
Just took me for granted
Had a diamond in the rough and
You still took me for granite
So i'd turn my back
On things I thought matter
Lamenting in the sins and the
Halos that had shattered
In November we gazed at sea scapes
With each wave
Symbolizing things that we'd make
Love and war we were born as keepsakes
To underscore loves accord when peace breaks
In November