Sadistik - The Exception to Everything lyrics

Beautiful and innocent, suitable and militant
Are scripted on the walls of
The cubicle I'm living in
I'm different, if you take away that I'm gone
A heart on my sleeve
With a razor blade jacket on
In Babylon I would hold my
Breath and listen close
To the ghosts of death the ocean
Kept when the winter froze skin and bones
Is what my burly bag of flesh will hold
Digesting hope with another thirty
Pack and Lexapro
Discomposed, from all the fuckin'
Ghosts that follow me
Across a battered path of shattered
Glass and broken arteries
It's oceanography the way
The blood accumulates i'm rude awake
With one eye open like Homer's Odyssey
And honestly
I don't need to make a difference
I just want to live my life
Without a fee to pay admission
Apathetic bliss in these apathetic days
Cus I'm apathetic mixed with
The pass aggressive ways
Anesthetic sprays from my tongue
'til the pain stops
I'm trying to figure out if this
Is blood or the raindrops
Love or a safe spot, think twice
While I take another shot until the
Angels start to sing like

I've got a bone to pick with
All these skeletons in closets
They're breaking down the barriers
Embellishing my losses
And under all the verses
I wonder if it's worth it
And whether it's irrelevant
The elements are constant
No sleep and apparently a pen
Is the perfect combination for
The therapy again so I scribble in a pad
'til it carries me within
All the ripples in my past
That I carefully attend
When all I got to do is
Take a look into my pedigree
And mentally amenities will
Make another memory
The penalties are lending me a
Bitter loss of energy
A destiny of inhibition until my
Wings will set me free, now
No time for regrets
Keep moving forward and hope for the best
Its all gone
I'll say so long and never let go
Of what I hold in my chest
This is dedicated to the
Dedication left behind
Me, a dedicated mental patient on
A bed of knives i meant to find a certain
Person worthy of current purpose
Searching through the epitaphs to
Make the dead alive
And edify as I watch all the faces walking by
Painted with perplexing looks
Abrasions and awkward eyes
Showing me to modify broken wings
I've taught to fly often I go and dream of
A place across the sky
Where I reside and dark breaks the light
Never stop moving, a sharks way of life
Set still as sparks drape the sky
And debt builds, a heart pays the price with
Love, pain, sun, rain
(I remember when my mother used to lie to me)
Hate, grace, blood stains
(and I remember when my father
Used to lie to me) life, death, time, rest
(and I remember when my teachers
Used to lie to me) this is my breath
(and then they wonder why I have
No faith in this society)
I can't find stability I
Lack the right ability
To act inside humility and magnify
The will in me every time I try to be
Satisfy or feel at ease
I'd rather be an actor and to act
Than try to deal with things
Until I fall and I hit the rock bottom
And I grieve with the leaves 'til
I pray it's not autumn
The blood starts to draw and
It falls from the wrists
When the slit's are across and
I ball up a fist so call it a gift but I'm
Not living for the present
When it all becomes the past and
I can't listen to the questions
Isn't it a blessing when I
Feel like I'm alive
And I don't have to be another
Fucking cynic for a second

I remember somebody once asked me if
I ever thought about regret the
Answers no because when this masquerade is
Finally over I want to
Be remembered for who I am not
Who I was or who i wanted to be, cus this
Right here, this is me, so follow this

Even though I've never called it perfect
When I die
I want to know it all was worth it
I want to know that I tried my best with
Embracing every moment that I
Was blessed with every life, every death
Every time that I wept
Every moment, every person
Every lie that I said
Every night, every day
Every time every place
Every kiss, every wish
Every side of the maze
Every cut, every bruise
Every love that I'd lose
Every time that I broke and
The times that I grew
Every drop of rain that
These clouds would spew
To help form the man that I amounted to
And I'm thankful, that I am who I am
And I've been where I've been
And I came out grateful
When it's finally time to make an exit
Just know
That I don't regret a single second

This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything
This is the exception to everything