Sandman - My Thoughts lyrics

Good morning, I wrote this song instead
I said I need to clear some
Things out of my damn head
About us, you & me, what we gonna be
I find it hard to find a
Way past all our history

I know it’s tragic, I sit at home alone
Working on my music then I wonder
Why no-one hit's up my phone
I say I’m busy when I’m not
So I can be alone
Then get mad when you don’t
Call up my damn phone

I can be complicated
Understand why you’re frustrated
But, you gotta know, when I am low
I don’t wanna be faded
Don’t wanna be by myself
Cause sometimes it feels like hell
I find it hard to open up
Cause this ain’t show & tell

Too many times, people I gеt close to leave
So I hidе myself away so
They can’t hear me breathe
People close to me
Thinking that they can deceive me

If you don’t mind, imma stay this time
Because I know I fucked up
To treat you wrong
When you should’ve been worshipped
Like an angel an angel yeah
Is it wrong for me to say I’m sorry again?
I just can’t think about you & him

I don’t know why I’m like this
Why I can write a list, 4 pages of what I did
Your voice is what I miss
Keep thinking about the kiss
& I can’t help thinking that I push away
The people that are close to me

I like to walk in the rain
Just to feel something real
Cause sometimes I can’t deal
With the feelings inside of me
Pushing & pulling
Pushing me down & pulling me under the ground

I don’t really think, that I’m worth it
Coz I done wrong by you so many times
I don’t know why you, choose to stay with me
If you’re happier with him instead
I have doubts I have thoughts
About myself & my ways everyday
I think I’ll be fine, but I won’t promise you
Coz I don’t want to lie to you

If you don’t mind, imma stay this time
Because I know I fucked up
To treat you wrong
When you should’ve been worshipped
Like an angel an angel yeah
Is it wrong for me to say I’m sorry again?
I just can’t think about you & him no