Senses Fail - Blackout lyrics

I just drove under the Lincoln sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind
I stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn’t want to be the one to say:
"I know this hurts, but it’s time to break
In two pieces, the fault line is not secure"
A boat or bridge is needed to get back to her

I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I’m feeling more alive
But, I still have some old weight
That I’ve got to shed
Before I find happiness

I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain, instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleep
There are times, there are times
I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might
Still be some hope
Holding on, holding on, to the slack of rope
But that’s the whiskey talking
So: I hope that you can
Find some peace in life
Can you survive without me? 'cause
I thought I’d be fine
Now I'm slurring every single line!

I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I’m feeling more alive
But, I still have some old weight
That I’ve got to shed
I've got to move on before I find happiness

I've got to move on before
I can find happiness
This isn’t fair, nobody taught me
(how to let go)
"Just be here now and you’ll be set free"
(from sorrow?)
But at this time, I don’t see clearly
(how will I know?)
What is the point? What is the meaning?

Now, I’m struggling
I black out so I can’t dream
But, I still see you sneaking
Through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of
Medicine to dull self doubt
I just wanna drown you
Out with southern poison if I had a drink
For every god damn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep
If I had a shot for every
God damn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I’d get some sleep
Sleep, sleep, at least I’d get some sleep
Sleep, sleep, sleep
Then at least I’d get some sleep