Senses Fail - DB Cooper lyrics

I'm leaving home
Above the clouds with silver wings
I feel my guts slowly drop as engines sing
My teeth are clenched cause gravity is defied
I'm at a place where I feel dead inside

I know I can't take back what I never lent
Cause all my plans, crushed in the end

Desperate
As I slip the screws out from the seat
I need a way to breathe the wind
Tears the fuselage from the tail piece
I hope it sets me free

With my nose pressed up to the window pane
I watch the lights as now they dance in rain
I breathe out to make a canvas for your name
I can't relax, my shoulders carry the blame

I look below and weigh the rip
And now the bag is up
I'll be dropping weight
I'm diseased just like my father
He says it comes from my mother
I hope my son does not catch it

Look at what I have to do to survive
I hurt myself just to feel alive
I don't know if I'll make it back home
Cause, I don't know if there's
No hope left there
Everyone's looking for someway
I am looking for the one way out
I've been wasting my time standing in line
And this is what life is all about