Senses Fail - Still Searching lyrics

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On their salty lips and said to them
"I love you all!"

I carried the weight of the
World on my shoulders
For twenty years, and look at me now!

I've got something to say
About the last twelve months I've lived
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know

I take a pill every day to
Help me deal with life

And oh my god, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick
Attempt to feel at all

I carried the weight of the
World on my shoulders
For twenty years, and look at me now!

I've got something to say
About the family that I've lost
I hope my mother and my father think
That they raised a healthy boy

Who needs the help of a shrink
To even leave the house

And oh my god, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick
Attempt to feel at all

I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know
I'm not the same kid I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know

I carried the weight of the
World on my shoulders
For twenty years, and look at me now!
And now, and now i'm finding a way to forget
Everything that I know!

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On their salty lips and said to them
"I love you all!"

Don't ask, just follow, repeat, and swallow
Don't ask, just swallow them
Down your throat
Don't ask, just swallow, repeat, and follow
Don't ask, just swallow them
Down your throat

My best friend is a man with
A lab coat and a grin, i hold my
Shaking hand and he gives me medicine
It almost makes me feel
At home, but they slowly steal
My soul, I tell him, "I still feel alone"
"Don't worry, someday
I promise you will feel whole"

And oh my god, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh my god, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh my god, I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of