Sewerperson, ​riphomesick - ​​hindsight bias lyrics

I'm alright
But I'd be better if I could just step inside
And I took the reigns
Just tryna take control back of my life
But it's too much to fight
I reach back and swing, I try
I gotta wet my knife
Said it to my face and lied
I'm too mortified entrances stay fortified
I don't want advice
Trust I've heard it a million times
I can't take in sights
Swear that my fuckin' brain is fried
Such a lonely night
I can't say it but I'll try
I kept the worst all around me
Now you'll know better than
To fuckin' doubt me it's been way too long
I can hear the shadows call
More than writing on the wall
Reaching forward and I fall

Yeah, it's terrible
Absence of words just happenеd to say it all
It got way too much
I just couldn't go out and face it all
It's all my fault
Give into misery, lеan in and I drop
Couldn't find the words
Looking back and I seem to know it all

Tell me twice first time I was mummified
I'll abide with anything you say is right
In the dark we all turn to lesser life
Candle light saves me in these lonely nights
War inside your head is purely natural, baby
Once I say my grace, I turn to animal, baby
Pray for me 'cause I been out
My head as of lately
Tables turn and friends turn into
Heathens that hate me i feel I'm the perfect
Candidate in this purge
I got shackles on my ankles while
I pick at this dirt
I guess I don't got my angel
Looking down on my state
'Cause if they were then I'd be subject
To a numbing of my fate
As time goes by, I could feel me rot
The light cuts through me and it tears me up
I apologize for the pain I had caused
I know it doesn't make it right
But at least I fought

Yeah, it's terrible
Absence of words just happened to say it all
It got way too much
I just couldn't go out and face it all
It's all my fault
Give into misery, lean in and I drop
Couldn't find the words
Looking back and I seem to know it all