Shiloh - BLESSED lyrics

This is not the way I planned it
Sick of fucking up my chances
Looking at you through the
Glasses of another girl oh, yes it hurts but
I'm not the only one
Who thinks I'm too good for you
Oh, yes it hurts but
Something 'bout bad love
Kept me on that running back to you

Feeling blessed i'm never gon' see you again
I don't have to like all of you friends
I'm not just a part of your plan
I'm not even in your events feeling blessed
I'm so free

I've tried a thousand miles
Of my energy just to get through
I wrote countless hymns about pain
And instead of praying i manifested her
A god red flavor, a note in her layer
With a hint of wild rose and juniper berries
Love, beauty, and grace
The real first creation

Feeling blessed i'm never gon' see you again
I don't have to like all your friends
I'm so free i'm so glad
I never have to see you again