Slaine - Black Horses lyrics

I'm walkin through that building
And the building's brick, the children sick
The nuns have sewed up cunts
The priests are walkin with
Their killin sticks
My father's just a little boy
Cryin in his bed
My mother's starin at the brains blown out
The back of her father's head
How, hard is it? How hard is it
To trip out in this mess?
When my heart has just, my heart has just
Been ripped out of my chest
"I am not no bitch" I scream want
No part of what this dream
Am I really just imagining? Can my
Eyes trust what I'm seeing?
I'm a screwed up human being
Being screwed up chewed-up pills
Told you not to shoot up Mike
I watched you shoot up shoot up still
Told you not to load that gun
Watched you shoot that shoot that steel
I do not want that in
This nightmare, no not that
That's too for real
God I fought you tooth and nail
But you made me go through all of this
Now I have to call you just
To stop this alcoholic ticks
Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick, I'm
A tickin timebomb
And you could kill a donkey with just
Half the shit that I'm on
It's time to shut the door on this room
Right here I've had my eye on
Let's move down the hallway further
I can see them raping my mom
Back in Catholic school
Acid trippin with my tie on
The walls inside my house were not the
Ones to be a fly on
My face is looking older
No shoulder to cry on
This place is getting colder
I just want a bed to die on
I should've died much younger
I'm drowning under water
Old enough to see my son I was
Too young to meet my daughter
The fetus has a spirit
I hear it from a bassinet
That's empty but I keep lookin at
It every time I'm passin it
What the fuck you laughin at?
Have a little sympathy some empathy
You bastards always acting uncompassionate
I'm baskin in my past, it's an assassin
This assassin got my future by the throat
With the butcher knife and slashin it
Raw from my emotions now they're back
To take the last of it
My childhood was stolen from me
Fuck it now I'm trapped in it