Slaine - Ghosts lyrics

Oh! This is my life

This is my life this is my life
This is my life this is my life

I always knew I was different
Even back at six they tied me to a pole with
A rope and wrapped my wrists
They punched me and kicked me
And slapped me with sticks
In the ribs and the kids
Called my daddy a bitch
Said my father's a faggot
It aggravated my feelings
I didn't know no better but
Knew I hated the feeling
From laughing at me whenever
They would crack jokes
On my way to the store to
Get a pack of smokes for my nana
Benson and Hedges 100 with a
Note from my grandmother
It's something, she suffers from arthritis
Hands stuck together, drop down elbows
It looked like baseballs
She called marshmallows
I could see the silhouettes of the past
Hello the days back when I had
Those rain tap windows
To peer through and just look at the world
I was just a boy
I never knew what would occur
Blur ahead to myself as a half-dead fiend
Fucked up in my head
From what happened between
With my body on the floor
I'm asleep from beans
My life flashed before me
I peeped the scenes

Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head
They said I'm already dead
And I had so much blood to be shed
But, I can't spill it no more
And I have died a thousand deaths
On the ground so out of breath
Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
But, you can't kill me no more

Yeah as a teen
We all grew up with the same dreams
But hit the potholes in the
Street and became fiends
Got in fist fights every night
With the same team
Right around the time that Jay
The Wood came clean
I was hurt from my broken
Home and goin' crazy
Rollin' up coke in bones as though I maybe
One these troubled youth in
This modern day America
Thank God I'm still alive
I gotta say it's Erica
Who was always by my side
That's why I love her forever
She knows my whole pain and
All the stormy weather that I been through
What I overcame and what it meant to 'em
Other people looked at me like
A freak with a pencil
I got enough rage for every page in my books
What I done
I should be in a cage with the crooks
But, I'm not, barely by the skin of my teeth
Maybe there's a reason
Time for me to finish this beef

Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head
They said I'm already dead
And I had so much blood to be shed
But, I can't spill it no more
And I have died a thousand deaths
On the ground so out of breath
Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
But, you can't kill me no more

So, it's the dawn of a new day
And I've been given a platform
All the moments in my life
I got a rap for 'em
I gotta tell my story, bring it back for 'em
Either that or I could slip
Away in the cracks, gone
You think I'd let it happen
Well that's wrong
Who would've ever thought I would be
Saved by a rap song? I gotta capitalize
Cause, I'm rappin' with guys
That I idolized as a kid, I'm revitalized
Always looked at life through a writer's eyes
I learned this shit is hard, really man
You either fight or die
So I'm a stand up and fight that fight
I'm goin home broken bone and bloody tonight
You motherfuckers ever look and
Study your life and see how fade and greyed
They've made whatever you like?
Cause, I can feel it in my
Fucking gut when I write this pain is sweet
I needed to be cut with this knife

Yeah the ghosts talk to me in my head
They said I'm already dead
And I had so much blood to be shed
But, I can't spill it no more
And I have died a thousand deaths
On the ground so out of breath
Yeah I've been down that flight of steps
But, you can't kill me no more