Slaine - I Ain't Done lyrics

I've been caught up in the darkness
Of my anger and my hatred
I close my eyes and see
Myself hanging in the basement
Dangling my legs, veins straining in my head
Blood draining in the tub
Drowning in it glub glub
I been down in it: the mud -
I mean down in it: the dirt
I mean really down in it
Lost and found in it bezerk
I've been burned by the fire
Scorched by the flames
Of my own sins and desires so
I call them by their names
When they come'! Greed, Gluttony, Sloth
Envy and Lust they're all enemies
But they act so friendly with us
They roll with
Two other guys we call Wrath and Pride
Now I'm half as high as I am low
I can laugh and cry at the
Same time but I can't slow
Down, feeling manicky, panicky
Full of anarchy can it be so simple to get
Rid of them with Ritalin?
I'm trying to get into Heaven
Cutting out the middle man

Every time I drift away I see myself
Dead and buried in the cemetery
Accidentally staring at the sun
Shining through the filthy glass windows
Broken bottles in the bed-sheets tangled
Bloody naked with a gun
I'm livin in this tiny-ass room with
The mattress on the floor
And an ashtray, look what I've become
Light up a half-sniped cigarette and take
My last swig of liquor
Smoke the filter down down till it's
Done - but I ain't done

I'm cold-blooded
Stuck with the spirit of Hell frozen
Here's a hole inside my soul
My fear and my self-loathing
Got me hallucinating that all my
Walls are closing in (closing in)
I think I'm losing my grip
- there it goes again!
These demons live inside of me they talk
To me and lie to me whisper homicidally
I'm tryin to get 'em out of me
But, I can see this side of me
It's just becoming clearer
I'm startin to hate the sight of me
I break the fuckin mirror
Please Jesus just just just listen to
My prayer if you can please
I'm believing that these distances I've
Gone too far to leave
I'm breathing in the sickness
This addiction and disease this mess I'm in
This vicious is my missus and my mistresses
I'm twisted and ballistic
I'm addicted to this world
Forgive me for the pain that
I've inflicted on my girl and my son
I was stuck holding his bottle and a gun
And I couldn't get away where I was from

Every time I drift away I see myself
Dead and buried in the cemetery
Accidentally staring at the sun
Shining through the filthy glass windows
Broken bottles in the bed-sheets tangled
Bloody naked with a gun
I'm livin in this tiny-ass room with
The mattress on the floor
And an ashtray, look what I've become
Light up a half-sniped cigarette and take
My last swig of liquor
Smoke the filter down down till it's
Done - but I ain't done