Slaughterhouse - God Forgive Us lyrics

An open letter to my daughters
First Imma apologize for secrets
Your father hides
Put tears in your mama's eyes
Y'all on the opposite side of a bedroom door
You hearing your mama's cries to
Say that traumatized you
Would dramatize things, but still
It's fucked up to go through
Like when we were sitting in my car
And I told you i cheated on your mother
Got another women pregnant
And y'all got a baby brother
I feel like such a sucker for fucking up
Rain dropping on top of the beamer
Tears dropping in bottle of Aquafina amounts
No excuses, can't blame it on the fact I'm
Making music, can't blame it on rap life
It's the choice a nigga chooses
They say be the type of man you
Want your daughters to be with
Something I thought I agreed with
Until I looked in the mirror
Be with somebody way better than me
Shit I dropped my bar
Forgive your pops, my daughters

I told you I would ride for you
Thought I was your prince
Cause' I told you I would die for you
What did I decide to do?
Cheat and lie to you
I'm sure that pain was undeniable
But I can't find any new places
For me to hide the truth
Put this on the bible, so I'm closer to God
For kicking you out of a crib
That was supposed to be ours
The fight you never should have been in
You vs the side bitch
Handed you the baggage
But took her on the fly trip
That's a threat, total lack of respect
Even made you feel unattractive
I was average at best
See I put these other hoes in your car
In your bed
My wife in your life, your mind, your head
So she left me, not like I gave her a choice
How could we ever raise kids
I'm busy raising my voice
And I'm trying now to live with myself
How could you forgive me when I
Ain't learn how to forgive myself

Look, I'm sorry
This relationship really ain't gone
Get nowhere without forgiveness
Couple of truths we've got to have so
We can walk through this fire unscathed
Trust, communication, forgiveness, compassion
I want you to be as passionate as I am
I was a boy then, you talking to a man now
So I want to treat you like that
I want to treat you like I'm a man now
Want to treat you like the woman
You deserve to be treated like i love you
Uh, talk to em y'all god got us

If I could see homie right now
It'a be a bang out
Witnesses would be like, too wicked
Just let them ring out
Try to knock each other brains
Out, so many shots, i can't count
They would never know me and
Son used to hang out
Everybody making mistakes, but my mistake
Ouch why the fuck did I go to that party
And I ended up in Jermaine's house
Bring that half-gallon of E&J out
Blow haze out my nose
All these hoes ended on Lauren couch
That nigga's a motherfucker, my nigga bitch
I'ma sucka
She sittin under them covers eyes dripping
Why did I touch her, I'm tripping
I gotta figure now how to fuck him up
Tell my brother I threw my
Dick in his baby mother, what the?
I didn't even get the chance to
Came out in and my man threw
Shots at me constantly as I ran through
Heard him yelling 'damn you' as
He tried to clear me
Its been seventeen years of drama
He's still ain't trying to hear me

I don't get why people talking
About how blinding love is
I fell out with my
Oldest sibling over nothing
We're both stubborn
They say you can't take the heat
Get out the kitchen
Half my life my wife is standing inside
Of mines with an open oven
I know I crossed lines so If I
Say some things to you baby
I can't say to your face because
You'd probably slap across mines
I fucked a lot of bitches
And if you think it means I did
It because I don't love you
Then you got it twisted
It's just something about a nga that's
Out here about his business that
Attract the kind of chicks that's honored
Just to be a sidepiece
I even thought I loved a couple of em
Bought em things, laid up with em
All the things you can't stand
I would say I'm a changed man
But I lied to you so much to do
What I thought was to protect your feelings
My words don't mean shit no more