Sølace - I Remember lyrics

I remember when it all made sense
When we never played tense
Fear was just but a word
Not a blade in my fense
Just something in my mind
That i never seemed to find
I always runed around it
Now it holds me behind
Wasn't locked up in this mess
My days go by full of meaningless stress
Feels like a long walk in a dark forest
Can't afford this or fold these
Cards that were delt i don't play games
But if i did id win like joey said
I always spread love but sometimes i sin
Ive seen my bridges burn
Ive seen my tables turn but whats life
If i don't die i learn from mistakes
I passed i burn all of the past
And shit that doesn't seem to last
Long many feelings in my brain
Many thoughts on my mind but i don't mind
I put em all in this song and
I used to think i love her
Not even a bit of my heart is full
Left right left right im tryina calm down
Its push and pull funny how my shots go in
But then i lose the game
Funny how my nights are tired
And my days the same
Ive been waiting for a miracle
2 years ive been selling my tears
Just some pocket money
Theres nothing they know about me
Im talking bout those few people
That listen to my stuff
And altough it's been 2 years
Speaking my mind has been rough
Writing page after page
But it's still not enough
Hope that it's stage after stage
One day and im going up surely im growing up
I hope into a honest man
I hope i won't be rolling up
All these emotions to a bottle
And then turn it's bottom up
Try to take it easy
But the spirit's go and tease me
All im writing here is cheesy
And it can never please me