Suffocation - My Demise lyrics

He thought and the chance
To lose or perhaps to gain
A new found worth or disgust
None the wiser could know

Why is it my burden or blessing
To be the one to go through this loss
To lose or gain a chance at living
Why must I be this barer of such burdens?

To be this fortunate or cursed
I know not the difference with
Such weight on my shoulders
Again I must continue on the
Quest given to me
It is not a question, it is the answer
I will be the victor

I'll die too many times and not have learned
The lessons forced upon me
I live not for myself
But for some greater good in
This hell we call home

I no longer exist here among men
I've succumb to an unknown force
I't s reduced me to nothing

I am not here even now
Where am I? As I still breath

I'm not alive
Not to feel but rather to suffer and die
A lifetime that spans eternity
Too strong to selfishly close
The book of life

This terrible nightmare that I'm living must
Be all in my head