Sugababes - New Year lyrics

Sitting here stressing at 2: 30 am
About how fast a year can go
I wonder where it went
If we start all over again
Would it really work?
I know that you could be
Could be coming back to me

Mesmerized by the thoughts of it
Traumatized, I'm so scared of it
Wanna stop thinking, gotta get to sleep
Gotta wake up fresh, get on my feet
Push the thought of you away, do it today

I'm older than my years, drowning in my tears
Surrounded by the fear, since you went away
A year ago, at Christmas

You locked away your secrets
Kept them away from me
I only came to say goodbye
Now you finally see
You wanna start all over again
Make it work this time
But I don't wanna end up
Feeling far away from fine

I memorized what you said to me, so surprised
It was hell to be
So frustrated with the way we were
Not a single word could make it work
Now look at us today, we blew it away

I'm older than my years, drowning in my tears
Surrounded by the fear, since you went away
A year ago, at Christmas