Supastition - Soul Searching lyrics

Y'all need some soul searchin'
Gotta find your sole purpose
Y'all need some soul searchin'
Gotta find your sole purpose

Dig deep inside, Dig deep inside, find ya
Dig deep inside, Dig deep inside, find ya
Find your sole purpose

They say that I'm an old soul
Trapped in a young physical i'm so cold
Only to certain individuals I don't know
Guess I matured at an early age
From watching niggas prematurely shift
To the pearly gates
And witnessing your child arrive
On the birth date
Will help keep you grounded
Reminding you why you here in the first place
I need a place to rest my soul, so
My destiny's controlled, so I guess, yes
That's my goal i'm not trying to fall victim
To the liquor and
The Newports, and other shit
That you thought, would break my stride
That's the way I am inside
I make mistakes and fall from
The 'greatest man alive'
I got addictions of my own
I'm trying to balance out instead
I got a past that seems to haunt me
Every time I get ahead
I try to walk the right path
And abide by the gospel in this day and age
That shit is damn near impossible
You gotta take time, do some soul searching
Make up your mind, find your sole purpose
Everyday you feel so worthless
Whatchu gon' do with your life
Whatchu gon' do with your life

So many nights I fight to
Clear my conscious, I'm just, being honest
I think I sacrificed my life
Despite the fights with
Ma-dukes over nonsense
Somewhere along the line I
Gained the right insight
I should have gave my life to
Christ more than once or twice
But, it's the fear of back
Sliding that's pushing me back
My spirit could be intact
But, I'm so engulfed in sin
That there is an opening in hell
You can throw me in
I guess I'm in the same boat with my friends
Swimming up shit's creek again
And won't believe till I see the end
If I don't shape up
I'll know exactly where I'll
Spend my afterlife
Cause temptation is a bitch that's
Too hard to sacrifice
I'm far from an angel, far from a saint
And I really want to change, too
But deep inside I can't it's real
I got some inner demons that
I need to work on
I'm trying to get to higher ground
Like that old church song

You gotta take time, do some soul searching
Make up your mind, find your sole purpose
Everyday you feel so worthless
Whatchu gon' do with your life
Whatchu gon' do with your life

I need to do some soul searching
Find my position in life
Man, no one's perfect, yet, this is my life
Picture my night's of insomnia
I can't sleep a wink, anxiety
But care about what other people think
I stare into the mirror
Thinking 'what have I become'
A serpent, a person, am I
Worse than that bum, of a father
Who jetted on his first birthed son
Left me and my momma stranded
Marooned and abandoned
But then again I'm not as
Bad as some would say
But god ain't making no
Comparisons on judgement day
I need to change, but I'm stuck in my ways
I'm still suffering daily
I ain't really been feeling up to it lately
Barely get enough rest in, hardly
Ever have an appetite
My fam think it's signs of depression
That's not the case though
I'm just searching for my sole purpose
Finding myself downtown
To do some soul searching

You gotta take time, do some soul searching
Make up your mind, find your sole purpose
Everyday you feel so worthless
Whatchu gon' do with your life
Whatchu gon' do with your life

Take Time