Tate McRae - chaotic lyrics

I have this paralyzing fear
That I'll maybe go nowhere
But God forbid me ever admitting
I could be scared
And I can't stand my friends right now
We got nothing in common
But being lonely's worse than just
Having friends that don't care

You said it looks like
I've been going through hell
How did you know?
How could you tell?
Ask me to explain myself
Well

I'm trying my best here
To be brutally honest
Nobody said changing
Would be this exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause
It's been making me carsick
How could you blame me?
Growing up is chaotic

Don't wanna say it but
I really think that I miss him
It might seem stupid but
I still look through all of our texts
Who knew that wanting someonе could
Ever make mе this desperate
Don't think I'll do that again, no

You said it looks like
I've been going through hell
How did you know?
How could you tell?
You ask me to explain myself
Well

I'm trying my best here
To be brutally honest
Nobody said changing
Would be this exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause
It's been making me carsick
How could you blame me?
Growing up is chaotic

And maybe I'm just blowing
All this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no
I can't help it
Fooling myself thinking that
I'll never love again
Goddamn, I felt it, I really felt it
Maybe I'm just blowing
All this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no
I can't help it
Spending too much time on things
I know that I'll forget
But damn, I felt it

I'm trying my best here
To be brutally honest
Nobody said changing could be
This exhausting
A foot on the brake 'cause
It's making me carsick
How could you blame me?