Team StarKid, Angela Giarratana - Black Friday lyrics

Is this what I lived for?
To be choked in a toy store
While staring into hell
There's something that's beautiful
Being awake for my funeral
You can close the casket now

The plans for my father's hopeless seed
Born into moral poverty
Still, I wasn't the angel heaven sent
To break through my cliché boundaries
'Cause Friday is black for me
The dreamer has dreamed her dream
When Friday is black there's no turning back
'Cause Friday is black for me

Is there some lesson to learn
Should I never have wanted?
I never even got started
Or were the decks always just this stacked

I mean, it's really a godsend
Clear my plans for the weekend
But there's nothing to subtract
I don't want your half baked sympathy
When did it save those in need?
Still, I thought that angels did exist
But now I hope they plan to end it quick

'Cause Friday is black for me
Only my ashes will see the sea
When Friday is black there's no turning back
'Cause Friday is black for me

At first I didn't know what she was to me
At first I didn't know why I cared
Or why I wanted
To hold her and rock her to sleep
Did I need her more than she needed me?
Maybe I'm wrong she can go on her own
But, I'm leaving

'Cause Friday is black for me
Only my ashes will see the sea
When Friday is black there's no turning back
'Cause Friday is black-

You're not dead yet