Tech N9ne, Mackenzie Nicole - Fear lyrics

Fear this was the moment I feared
Fear this was the moment I feared
Fear this was the moment I feared
Fear this was the moment I feared

Reoccurring dream, I was falling
Droppin' from something tall and
Jesus name that I'm calling
This is pretty deep how I'ma
Decorate the city street
Little bitty pieces
There's really gonna be some chalky drawings
In this dream I had, when I land
I can taste the blood
I can smell the concrete
And I can feel my bones
Crush on a calm street
Dark and desolate, my heart'll never get
Another beat I'm gonna be
Other head to split, my hell is credited
Where the red is in
I'm down and dead admit in
Light I'm dreadin' this
If we're created of God then predestination
Should not be looked at as odd
When we're blessed to wake in-
Side of a dream, like I've been here before
And we sum it up with some french
Expression like we didn't hear the lord
So I'm hopin' and prayin'
That I won't be opened and sprayin'
In real life and it's just a dream
And it's not a thing that can sway my view
But my fear is that I end
Up layin' and ready for decayin'
What I thought was a dream now it's Déjà vu

Fear if I fall will the angels catch me?
Fear or end it all is it my destiny?
Fear
Is there a sound when the ground absorbs me?
Fear or a dream tellin' me my story

I called up my mother
But who answered my brother
He said "she real sick but I'm gonna put
Her on just tell her you love her"
My heart it just fluttered when mama
Picked up she would utter
"Who is this?" I said "Donnie"
But she thought I was another
Didn't even know me, and she's not an oldie
It's the lupus or epilepsy
Maybe the psychosis solely
"This your son I just called
To say happy birthday"
Not really knowin' me hit me in the worst way
Then she said "Oh yeah, little Donnie
How you doin' in school?"
I said "I'm 42, mommy!"
I'll give my arm, leg, leg, arm
Head if that means my momma get better
Toughest thing to swallow is when
Someone who raised you, they gonna forget ya
I'm feelin' sadness, I'm feelin' anger
Steady praying for the higher power to
Come down and change her
Rearrange her 'cause my fear is that
The sickness in her mind
In due time it'll make her son a stranger

Fear a stranger to the one who raised us
Fear nameless to the one who named us
Fear back to the place where it all began
Fear
I'm seeing heaven but I fear it's the end

Taught to have faith in God
Breakin' bread then we bakin' cod
Makin' plenty then spread it abroad
Wash it down with a glass of Shiraz
I try to walk the path of the righteous one
But this life is one, that's full of strife
Let's run to the mountain top
What I'm 'bout to say if suckas
Starts to thinking this holy name
I denounce then stop man, I'm just sayin'
I do a whole lot of prayin'
And I wonder if it's listenin'
To Aaron's nightly whisperin'
'Bout mom in the tithe she's weakly payin'
I know it's a blessing
That I raised kids 'cause I got skill
And thank God that gangbang thing
Didn't bring me hot steel
Now my mom's worse and a lot ill
My fear is that this God I'm prayin'
To for my mother is not real

Fear extinguish me from this world of fire
Fear false teachings taught by liars
Fear prayers echo in an empty asylum
Fear no salvation from man's messiah