Titus Andronicus - My Eating Disorder lyrics

Drug addict since single digit's
Vitamins to fight the fidgets
They put something in my apple
Sauce but I found it

Now that I'm finally twenty-six
Just smother it with a cigarette
No, I haven't had dinner yet -what about it?

It would be so easy to say it
Was my parents that destroyed my brain
It was their drugs that drove me insane
I wouldn't be alone with all the blame
No, I never felt so free from sin as
When I was screaming out "I can't win!"
If it's not too late to start again
Open up that womb and I'll crawl right in

And when I refuse, don't begrudge me
I can feel you starting to judge me
I'm starting to feel, I'm feeling ugly

Opened my eyes to a severed head
Except I didn't know it was dead
Only that it bled and bled upon my plate

Now they pass me from hand to hand
Pharmacist to Marlboro Man
Back to pharmacist again, too late

I know the worlds a scary place -that's
Why I hide behind a hairy face
Blue Devils try to explain it way -blue
Devils started it in the first place
Nobody answers for me now
Nobody else's job to figure out
Why I'm scared to open up my mouth
Why there's so many things I can't allow
Probably easier just to eat at home
Better I should wait until I'm all alone
Then I stuff myself until I explode

Cream of my compulsion rising to
The tip of the spout
Screaming and convulsing
Now I'm gonna spit it out
An amorphous monster makes his
Home inside my house
Even now, stretched out on the couch
Waiting for the midnight hour
Until he gets loud

Yes, my body is some prison -why
Else keep it filled with poison?
No reason to celebrate
Forget the milkshakes, mom -it will take
More than a spoonful of sugar for me
To swallow my pride this time
I decide what goes inside
I decide what goes inside my body
One more time, I decide
I decide what goes inside
I decide what goes inside my body
My eating disorder -it's inside me

Spit it out