Token - Somewhere in Between lyrics

Yeah no matter what plane I'm inside of and
What ocean I'm on top of
Distance from everything is still the problem
Everyone I need is down thousands of feet
And everyone who's with me now
I pay 'em to be
I'm in Germany with merch money in my lap
But all I think about is my mom
Is home with a bad back
And every Monday she's hunched over
Draggin' out the trash that should be me
But she won't say it 'cause
She don't want to distract
I don't even talk to dad
I think that whole thing is ruined
He don't reach out 'cause he
Just feels like he's intruding
But I don't reach out
'Cause every time we catch up it's so obvious
These are things we shouldn't just
Be catching up about, like
What country you in? What house
You been staying in?
What's your manager's name again? How
Much you payin' him?
I don't blame him though
I don't keep him up to speed
If I'm not a bad son
I'm probably somewhere in between
Now when I get recognized in public
They say I'm standoffish
Really I'm just awkward when I'm talking
When you see how shy I am
You probably think that I ain't poppin'
So when you call my name
Don't call it again if I ain't respondin'
But my producer hang with artists who
Are way bigger than me
And they get recognized every
Time in the street
So when I'm with my producer out to eat
I pray a fan approaches so I can make him say
"True, he's doing his thing too"
Shit I ain't famous
Guess I'm somewhere in between
If I was famous
I wouldn't have to promote my
Song on this livestream
'Cause my manager told me to
He said my plays aren't the best
So I fake a smile to hundreds of fans like
"It's my fastest growing yet! Look I'm happy
Don't forget!" mom's back is broke again
Still tryna get me off pills
That control the stress
How I'm supposed to tell my older
Sister that I'm still depressed?
With merch money in my lap
But she ain't made a fucking dollar yet
Today I read a comment telling
Me that I'm a gimmick
With controversial storylines to
Get attention a few fans came to my
Defense like "We were boys"
I wanted to tell those fans that
Maybe he has a point
I wrote a song about a kid who got bullied
It's called "Exception"
And the part I didn't mention was
Andy was a real person
And someone I befriended
Then I left him for another group of
Friends who used to torment him
I made money of off "Exception"
And off of Andy
In interviews they treated me like a hero
I wrote a song about how
Fucked up social media was
And started dating a chick who wanted me to
Post her to get her followers up
So no matter how many fuckin'
Comments that I read
Tellin' me how much that I've helped them
To grow and follow their dreams
I'ma still feel like a coward
The hero just ain't me
But to make them feel better
Just tell them I'm somewhere in between
Between somewhere

Yeah, ayy success is coming in heavy
I think I'm changing already
My life is intimidating so friends
Just want to impress me
Some wear Supreme to impress
Some bring a gun to impress me
But none of that does impress me
Whether if it's love or envy
Mark was tryin' to get me with Em
I told him I wasn't ready
Maybe that was a mistake
Maybe I would've blown up already
Wonder if Interscope was mad that I didn't
Pick up when they called again
Subliminal disses from legends
Are still compliments
Tour money had me talkin' shit
'Til I spend sixty thousand on
Clothes and went broke
Manager screamed at me, watch your tone
See, when couple thousand in the
Crowd tell me yes it's hard to tell me no
I'm still in Germany with merch
Money in my lap, bitch
I'm countin' it even if
I already double checked
There's no better feeling than
Holding your parents rent
I know I could still fail
But they only see success
And I'm somewhere in between it
This plane is too high, you can't reach it
No service, no service, no service
I got no plan
Ain't nobody knockin' on my door
Except the post man