Token - Summer Break lyrics

Uh

It's summer break, yeah it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here
With nothin' but tears?

Look, first day of break never
Lives up to my expectations
Takin' mind over vacation
Hey anxiety's ancient
It's time for the bacon
Makin' memories with Bud
But it's just a metaphor for serenity and fun
So it's all good
You sober? Just act like you act
That's until everybody's drinkin' and
Havin' a blast
And everybody who's gettin' together
Is fucked up you see the girl you kinda
Like gettin' with drugged punks messy drunk
Probably have sex in a dump truck
The next day, you say, "That wasn't me
That was the drugs"
Funny, lookin' at you hittin' that blunt
Thinkin' if I took a rip and a puff
Would I be buildin' enough courage
To talk to you?
Would you be drunk enough to oblige?
If so, the next morning
Would I just be one of those guys
That you forget the times spent
Or regret the times spent?
Nah, I'll just head to my bed
While the rest of my
Friends live summer break

Yeah it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here
With nothin' but tears?
Man, why are you trippin'? It's summer break
Yeah, it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here with no peers?
Afraid to look in the mirror, it's summer

Uh, my whole life
I associated summer with sorrow
Maybe it's the deceivin' sun I followed
Promisin' brightest, when shoot
It never changed tomorrow
It's brighter as a reminder of the
Happiness I never seemed to acquire
Just another broken promise I
Dreaded my whole life
I promised dinner with my dad
When ended in cold nights
As his work would take over, so
I'm left in my home, right?
Reminded of his absence
So I'm cryin' on my mattress
Yeah, I brainwashed myself to think
Happiness is never carried
It's rare and temporary, life's
No fairy tale, it's scary
You get left out and let down
No celebratin' is met
I try to live in the moment but
The attempt just makes me depressed
Maybe I'm thinkin' realistically when
I go reminisce
Or maybe I'm the negative pessimist
Check the evidence
Or maybe I confront myself
With these scribbles
Askin' myself where I can live a little
For God sake, it's summer break

Yeah it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here
With nothin' but tears?
Man, why are you trippin'? It's summer break
Yeah, it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here with no peers?
Afraid to look in the mirror, it's summer

Yeah, I don't act like me when out
'cause I don't fit in amazin'
I get lost in my thoughts
Awkward in social situations
I hate it and crowds is even worst
Maybe I hate the summer 'cause of the
Enlarged amount of these that occur
I'm just tryna be myself or cool down
But these social ranks you see in school
Are even more visible when school's out
Like the beach, the girls with the curves
The boys with astounding frames
Swimmin' together
I've always been insecure about my weight
Used to be mad overweight
Always called names
Lost a lot of the weight in fifth
Grade but I'm still not the same
Maybe it's all in my mind and I should try it
But what's the point when everything you
Feel, your mind supplies it, man
Yeah, I really just don't fuck with it
So I spend my summer with
Music to be productive with
Do it me, the only person I know how to be
Wonderin' why I got these mental boundaries
In summer break

Yeah it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here
With nothin' but tears?
Man, why you trippin'? It's summer break
Yeah, it's summer break
The happiest time of the year
Then why am I stuck here with no peers?
Afraid to look in the mirror, it's summer