Tonedeff - Porcelain lyrics

Days pass and time goes on and on
You might think my skin was strong enough
But there's something you don't understand
I'm porcelain, I'm porcelain

Knowin' if I could give you the
Sky and also the sea
But, I don't think there's one thing in
This world that'll make you notice me
Cause you can wield that sword in
Any direction you damn well please
But, you don't understand that my
Heart is in your hands
And I'm beggin' you not to squeeze

I was ruined in the 7th grade
The pain never changed or went away
The memory's ingrained like it was yesterday
They're tellin' me I'm crazed
Because I blessed her name
A steady gaze to sweat her frame
If life is just a play
Then she was center stage
I sent her letter pages on a daily basis
That her friends trashed in waste bins
So if she asks there's no way to trace this
She was reigning queen of junior
High and I was faceless
Painted bangs and bracelets and even
Looked graceful in plated braces
I hate to say this, but my aim was wasted
So I trained my heart for 7
Years while she remained in basics
Leadin' the same parade of babes to places
Swearin' I held a space in her heart
Yet every semester she'd vainly replace it
Yet, I waited and displayed my patience
Even offered statements of positive advice in
Her cases of shaky situations
But, she never associated me
With hip relations
With bated breath I withstood the breakage
Like porcelain

With my hormones racin'
Prayin' a for a date on summer vacation
Around the time when your
Body is under renovation
You know when nothin' really fit's?
And the girls get bolder
And start lookin' for older affiliates
I hold a silly wish in my mind
That she'd willingly kiss these lips
But, I won't get frisky
I get the feeling she'd diss me
I'm still in a risky
Position - itching to hit a decision
To muster up the ambition
To make the proposition
Desperation became my religion
The same way you envision cynics finding
Jesus caged in a prison
Visitin' hours consisted of English
Lit and diction
History quizzes on Christians and
Mr richard Nixon
Transfixed in her smile like
The other fifty guys she hypnotized
Guess I'm another stickler for pretty eyes
I minimized my obsession
Never made the confession
Even evaded her presence at
Our graduation procession

It was a decision I later regretted
Wonderin' what I could have said and would it
Have swept her away if I said it?
Step and repeat and edit
- my thoughts clashed
But, I regained my lost chance the very
Day that we crossed paths again
I revelled in the opportunity
Asked her to go dancing
Baskin' in this confidence that was new to me
And it worked beautifully! A wild night
Became a quiet ride home
As I broke the silence her eyes roamed
7 years of frustration then hit
Her ears with abrasion
As I laced her with my tale of lust
Tears and anticipation
Her reaction was a face of fakeness
Told me she was flattered
But within a tone lacking any amazement
It seemed she'd heard it all before
I realized then her popularity is
What I wanted her for
I tried to be strong as
She hopped out the door
But even the hardest hearts break when
They're dropped to the floor like porcelain

That's love so hard to let go sometimes
But, you gotta move on
Or you can break your own heart

Cause in the end we're all just little kids
With scarred hearts
From little kids who think they're
Bigger than they really are
Just little boys with scarred hearts
From little girls who think they're
Older than they really are
Just little girls with scarred hearts
From little boys who think they're
Older than they really are
Just little kids with scarred hearts
From other little kids