Twiztid - Afraid of Me lyrics

I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm nobody that you ever wanna be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me

Now you can try to sedate me
Assassinate or just hate me
But there's nothing that you can
Do to me lately
Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind
So I'm confused and intertwined
From being rejected so many times
I wanna leave it all behind
So kind of you to pick up the album
And give it a try for once
And run and tell your homies that
These motherfuckers will die for us
So many questions
Fingers pointing for answers
Suggesting that I'm the cancer that
Lingers inside the pasture
With green grass up to my neck
And situations that's too fast
To think about and most
People can't dream about
A hundred million miles and
Every single second
And every time you hear this record I want
You to feel me on every sentence
Reminisce from descendants of past treasures
We'll embark on a journey
That'll stay alive forever
Plus I would stand over on
My side of the fence
Regardless of the circumstances
Or the consequences


I am my own worst enemy
I'm not the smartest motherfucker and shit
I don't pretend to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
My mind's not in proper working
Order or in therapy
Deranged confused and mentally abused
Life spent hanging on the street so what
The fuck I got to lose?
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
If you don't know me by now
You'll never know me
You can put that on my real homies
I got problems and they stack like bills
And I relate to the broken
Bleeding heart love killed
And I awaited in the shadows
Awake in the dark
Hoping to talk to the passed on
I'm falling apart
I'm such a mess indecisive, I'm fading away
I'm out of touch with
Society and living today
Never relied on my sanity, I throw it away
To become the maniac that's
Got your attention today

Can you keep a secret?
Well I'm afraid of the world because
They want me to die
Can you believe it? But I'm still alive
And been floating since '95
With my chin held high but
I'm so dead inside
Let the problems just roll and put
Them back into a pile
Because it's just a bunch of shit that
I can't deal with right now
And I'm tired of always guessing
And messing it up again
And the next day it's even deeper
And I'm steady sinking in

I took a look at myself and came
To grips with what I found
It was a vision of a child
Disturbed and broke down
No soul, no heart because I gave it away
No time for feeling sorry
I'll grieve another day
And all those tears are
Stored in storm clouds
That hover above me and cover the ugly
Continued to haunt me when I was feeling low
That's the same reason I hold
On and never let go