Twiztid - Dead Instead lyrics

I wanna be happy
Like people in pictures I see
On the doctor walls
I wanna feel better all by myself without
The help of drugs or alcohol
I wanna be social
Kind of friendly with great
Subjects to talk about
But when I come in contact with others
I'd rather just go and shut my mouth

I built these walls
(To keep this things in line)
It seems these walls
(They'll lock me up in my mind)
I built these walls (To help with my head)
It seems these walls would rather
Have me dead instead

It's a struggle for me to try
To exist inside a bubble
I'll admit I often stumble, I'm no diff
Feel the pressure losing grip
Speak your mind or bite your lip
Either stand or take a sit
From the info that you get
No one knows of it's legit
I don't really care anymore
I know it sounds selfish
But what am I helping it for
No one really cares anymore
I know it sounds helpless
Know it sounds helpless

I built these walls
(To keep this things in line)
It seems these walls
(They'll lock me up in my mind)
I built these walls (To help with my head)
It seems these walls would rather
Have me dead instead

I wanna be happy
Like people in pictures I see
On the doctor walls
I wanna feel better all by myself without
The help of drugs or alcohol
I wanna be social
Kind of friendly with great
Subjects to talk about
But when I come in contact with others
I'd rather just go and shut my mouth

I built these walls
(To keep this things in line)
It seems these walls
(They'll lock me up in my mind)
I built these walls (To help with my head)
It seems these walls would rather
Have me dead instead have me dead instead
Have me dead instead
It seems these walls would rather
Have me dead instead