Twiztid - Magic Spellz lyrics

What I feel lately is 50 shades of hate me
And I can't seem to break free
I don't like what I'm feelin' maybe
My self-medicating at the point of breaking
I'm not sure if you're relating
I just need to feel like
I'm the one worth saving

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spells you
Weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living
I'm dying this minute

You bring me up and take me down
Life smacks the face, I hold my ground
Another day to sing this song aloud
I wonder can they hear me screaming?

Switch it now, change the day
And take whatever comes my way, I gotta say
That this magical spell is Heaven
Or Hell when it plays
It can lighten or darken up your day
Push it away

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spells you
Weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living
I'm dying this minute

I try to live but they want me to cease to be
I'm shedding skin, cutting teeth
And becoming me

Finger pointed, shaming, everybody blaming
What if I leave escaping, this I know
It'll be here waiting
Anticipating my downfall on the daily
But you give all that you gave me
And it saved me, and it saved me
(And it saved me)

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spells you
Weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living
I'm dying this minute
You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spells you
Weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living
I'm dying this minute