Twiztid - Wondering Why? lyrics

Deep down in this depression
Is a cycle that comes back around
My actions are my own
For the cause is I fear
Where I sit by the liar's side
Just because I am hated
And they conversate with me x2

On about how we can sometimes
Mature where emotion fades

On the windows in my mind at night
There some things going on
Some of them are not right
I've been locked in this house
In this abusive home
No one is there on the couch, and I'm alone
Inside of my head, things are unclear
I don't rely on the person
I see in the mirror
And I don't die for the chance
To be standing right here
Sometimes I'm a smart ass when being sincere

I see everything's flashing
I wish it would stop
There's something that makes me
So nervous 'bout cops
All their pushing and shoving and
Mace in my eyes
It will only keep burning this
Hate that's inside of me
Hitting and kicking me just for the fun
And all I keep on thinking
Is "Go For his gun!"
To protect and to serve are
The words you should heed
And if you don't we're going
To watch you bleed

Wondering Why (Why?) not giving up (No)
Nothing can break me wondering Why (Why?)
Not giving up (No) nothing can make me
Wondering Why (Why?) not giving up (No)
Nothing can save me wondering Why (Why?)
Not giving up (No) nothing can change me

She loves me and hates me
It's all just the same
But I can't hear her screaming
And yelling my name
Now her face is all blue
And her eyes are all red
From the bloodcells that just keep
On popping instead of me
(Help me, I'm burning and pushing away)
Her pictures and memories and
Things she would say
They keep coming and flashing
So I keep on laughing, Bitch
You never should of fucked my boy

I'm in touch with my fear
That's why I stay afraid
And I'll stay that way until
Night turns to day
And them nice words you say
Will slowly mutate
And become the better part of you
That we all love to hate
And while speaking on fate
I'm trying to relate
To the ever growing destiny
And it's amazing shape
They tell me I'm straight and then
They diss me on tape
There's a website debate
Was it all a mistake?

It just keeps calling me, and wishes my name
Only moonlight was hitting the darkness again
All my friends they are dead
But remain in my head
So I choose to believe that
They all are my enemies telling me (DIE)
And alter the sky, that hell isn't real
And heaven's a fantasy capture me mentally
Nothing substantually evident
Except that my head's a little fucked up