Vanguart - Foreign Complaint lyrics

I got something to write before
This letter slips in
I got no one by my side and finally now
I feel fine as the leaves are falling
As the sun is going down
My eyes are in the wind
But every summer they melt down

Here no one knows my name
They never see me around
I pretend I'm from Spain and
I don't even go out
Never thought it would be so hard
To live in other town
And I always remind of you when
The sleep gets me down

Every dusk I watch, well
It always leaves me sad
'cause that time that I got you
The dawn was the time to bed
And I never saw the dawn anymore
Now I've got to crawl
To get up from the bed
And then get off of the ground

I'm not looking for
I couldn't even get a job
Lately I'm too weak and I still
Got the bucks you gave me
People scream that I'm a slob
I pretend it's not with me
I just keep my face straight
With my eyes staring at my feet

Sometimes I miss my rock'n'roll
Records and my friends
But as long as I will die
They'll take me out of their heads
I'm not saying I was unwanted
It's just something usual
Maybe I never really liked 'em
But I miss them all

Last week I went to a bar
And there was no one at it
And I've been thinking how sometimes
Love's hard to fit
I remembered when I was a child
And how beautiful was my hair
And when I discovered that love
Is something hard to bear

But when the bar closed down
I started my thinking again
And going back home I cried
A little bit but then
I cleaned my face with memories from
My mom and my dad and for a quick moment I
Forgot that they are dead

I heard someone saying love's bitter, well
I didn't disagree
But later when I was sleeping I've
Been waken by a dream i don't remember well
But I only know it was about you
Then I spent all the day upset
'till accept I love you

But, you know life goes on
As it goes on your life
I'd be lying if I said
That someday I'll be back
'cause these words they haunt myself
I prefer to ignore the pain
'cause I'll always love you
But I don't want to see you again