Vitiate, Dan Bull - Awe-Tistic lyrics

Y'know as soon as I tell that
I have autism they're like
Woah really? I had no Idea man
Yeah, I know you don't
It's not an easy thing
To, be my own world all the time
To have to live inside my own box
Not being able to really
Communicate with other people but, this is
The best way I can try to describe it
Through the only thing I'm good at right?
Me and Dan let's do it

I never asked for the
Symptoms of Aspergers syndrome
It attacks where it hit's home and
Acts worse when Vit's grown
Give vocal indication that I
Hate social situations
I never found someone like me
Who was close to inspiration


Im cold in operation
Can't hold a conversation
Or untold observations that
Stole my concentration
Im at the feeble border
Between creepy awkward
And a deeper art form whenever people offered
Combined attacks, I can't keep eye contact
And I combat life with wannabe
Edgy and violent tracks
Simple mimicry to mask I show little empathy
Presently indifferent to everything from
Love to methamphetamines
Compassion died while murder makes
Me laugh and smile
Passers-by will make me keep my
Head down for massive miles
Everything needs to be put back
In order and placement
Can barely stand alone since
I totally lack coordination

Me, I'm living with autism
And all the world's a stage
For which I never auditioned
Me, I'm living with autism
My brain plays a syncopated change
Of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with autism
And these bars formed the cells
Of my mental prison
Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me, and living with autism

This is why I rap abusive
And keep actin stupid
Cause it's how I keep away
In the back reclusive
Say I condone murder to
Stop all my co-workers
From hanging out or making
Our relationship go further
I wanna end all these
Morbid thought proportions
And make another artist paint a
Portrait of the autist
People plan and specialize to try
And understand and recognize
But then they find they're
Unprepared and question why
Can't give a voice to the voiceless
Or make a life story pointless
Just say that I am disappointed
And always devoid of enjoyment
No one witnesses my
Intricate mental differences
No bridges between myself and
The Olympians or limitless
Marked as heartless but Im a victim
Caustic as a pale autist who has
Been given the harshest criticism
There’s no need to show sympathy or pity me
Just don’t have it be a mystery
The day that Im gone instantly

Me, I'm living with autism
And all the world's a stage
For which I never auditioned
Me, I'm living with autism
My brain plays a syncopated change
Of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with autism
And these bars formed the cells
Of my mental prison
Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me, and living with autism

I've said it before
And I'm ready to tell it again
In my lowest moments, I'm my own best friend
I wanna connect with the people around me
The people that doubt me
But being in a loud scene with
A crowd screaming around me
Is totally overwhelming
To the point where I feel I'm drowning
The sea and the fear surround me
The cheers are bringing me down deep
But now the crowning glory is
How the crowd applaud me
Applause resounding all around the sound
Is out of the ordinary
Kind of like my personality
Til I learned it wasn't a tragedy
These mannerisms and Danielisms are things
That make me actually me
An atom within the matter that's spanning
The seas and planets and galaxys
And that isn't an allegory
We're all composed of energy and it means
The planet's a can of beings
With infinite different varities
So why are me and V seen
As a difficult bit of society nah fuck that
- we're the facets in the diamond
While you're on the mountain shouting
You can't see the fact we're climbing

Me, I'm living with autism
And all the world's a stage
For which I never auditioned
Me, I'm living with autism
My brain plays a syncopated change
Of pace to your rhythm
I'm living with autism
And these bars formed the cells
Of my mental prison
Until I saw I didn't need to be forgiven
For being me, and living with autism

Autism isn't just about, complete disability
Sometimes it's about being unable to connect