Waxahatchee - Brass Beam lyrics

I took a pill
I went to sleep for the first time in weeks
You kept me up with all your manic energy
I had to go
I put it out just like a cigarette
I'd never be a girl you'd like
Or trust or you'd respect
When I think about it I wanna punch the wall
When I remember everything I wonder
If I'll always feel small

You look for me in the
Broken glass and Styrofoam
Painting yourself as a sufferer
A stepping stone you work real hard to herd
Your friends into a gallery
Narcissistic injury disguised as masterpiece
I just wanna run, yeah, I don't wanna fight
I just want to sing my songs
And sleep through the night
I endured your criticism
Self-loathing and all your doubt
I held you up above myself
Trying to ride it out
I got lost in your rendition of reality
All my offering rendered boring hyperbole
I couldn't see the sun from there
Just a beam
I thought it would never come out, yeah
I couldn't see the sun from there
Just a beam
I thought it would never come out, yeah
I had to leave