Wilco - If I Ever Was a Child lyrics

I've never been alone long enough to know
If I ever was a child

I was tied up like a boat
Unbuttoned like a coat set free for a while
Well I jumped to jolt my clumsy blood
While my white, green eyes
Cry like a window pane
Can my cold heart change even out of spite?

I slump behind my brain
A haunted stain never fades
I hunt for the kind of pain I can take

And I cry like a window pane
Can my cold heart change over night?
So I won't ever want to touch
Your heart too much or hold you too tight

I slump behind my brain
A haunted stain will never fade
I hunt for the kind of pain I can take

I never was alone long enough to know
If I ever was a child