Witt Lowry - Better for Me lyrics

Look, I brought your present back to
Tiffany's, yeah, was for your birthday
Before you hurt me the worst way
I wonder what's gettin' into me
I wonder if your drinks in
His mouth tastin' like victory
I wonder why at night every lie
Still plays like a symphony, i
Can barely focus, you never cared
I was broken
Been hurtin' since my dad passed
Bet you wouldn't have noticed
'Cause you were busy
Blacked out, stumblin', losin' focus
Surrounded by all that's hopeless in a
Life that you never chose, and
Here I go again
Preachin' like I know who you are
Too busy stuck inside your phone
To ever notice the stars
I miss the nights we'd sing
Adele in your car
And had you wetter than the tears that
You would cry when discussin' your scars
I know your demons carry weight
Don't know what it's like to be you
Built myself from the bottom
Don't know what it's like to need you
You lied from the beginning
Don't know what it's like to read you
My dad passed away and that day
I flew out to see you
Remember? I'm thinkin' back to December
And how we talked about forever
Now we talk less than never i can't lie
Sometimes I find myself
Re-reading your letter
I'm not sayin' I was perfect, still
I wish I woulda treated you better

How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
On and on and on again
I fear this voice inside my head
That tells me it's all lies and
I should let you go on and on and on again
I hear this voice inside my head
That tells me it's alright and
I should hold you close
And you don't know how many times
I forgive you
Just so I could keep you by my side
I don't know why we waste our time
Spendin' all our nights in this gorgeous lie

Now maybe time was just against us
'cause you had just been broken
When I met ya i tried to take your pieces
And put you all back together
But the truth is comin' out
I feel your void when we're together
Not sayin' that I was better
You drink to relieve the pressure
I know, let's keep it real
I know you loved to lie
But do you find you love me still?
'Cause he will never love you
Like I loved you
When I promise that is real
You can delete all of our pictures
But you can't delete your feels
You should be easy to replace
But every meaningless conversation
I see your face
I'm tryna fill this hole in my
Heart that you fuckin' made, i'm trippin'
Should've known that I would never find my
Happiness in all of these women
I need to find it in myself
That's for damn sure
Almost been a year since I
Got you from the airport
Crazy how time flies
I'm tryin' to hold on while
I wait for your call like, "Come out
At the bar!", at night, now
How could this be?

How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
On and on and on again
I fear this voice inside my head
That tells me it's all lies and
I should let you go on and on and on again
I hear this voice inside my head
That tells me it's alright and
I should hold you close
And you don't know how many times
I forgive you
Just so I could keep you by my side
I don't know why we waste our time
Spending all our nights in this gorgeous lie