Witt Lowry - How Should I Feel lyrics

Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Monster, there are voices in the darkness
And they say they won't go (yeah)

Stare long enough at the abyss and it seems
To start to stare back at you
Lost inside my head is a
Scary place I’ve adapted to
Friends and family call and I tell 'em
That "I'll get back to you"
Too busy on my phone, doomscrollin’
Spent the afternoon stressed out, head down
Can barely leave my bed now
I hate thеse fuckin' feelin's
They tell mе to try these meds out
But doc, we've only talked
For like ten minutes, i'm sketched out
Paranoid, can't tell if these people
Are foes or friends now
You know what it feels like to
Feel like nobody can help?
On top of that feel
Like you're losing yourself
I wouldn't even wish my enemies
The hand I was dealt
Thought I could pay the pain to
Fade with some material wealth
But tears fallin’ in the Tesla
I guess it’s kind of ironic
To feel so fucking broke inside
Somethin' I always wanted
My demons came to play
It feels like my brain may be haunted
Hate myself sometimes as much as they
Hate on me to be honest
I saw fentanyl take the life
Away from my cousin
I watched alcohol steal the life
Away from my dad i came from nothing
Now I’m scared that might
Be what I'm becomin'
Look in the mirror, barely recognize
The one lookin' back, so

Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Monster, there are voices in the darkness
And they say they won’t go

Wrote a song when my dad passed
And they said it was trash
That made me wish that I put
Less of myself into every track
I know you can't just burn the
Orchard when one apple is bad
But the fact of the matter is that
I feel I'm startin' to crack
And they say "Don't take
It to heart" well, how the fuck do I not
When I put my soul inside somethin'
And they say it's a flop?
Constantly tear my art apart when this
Is all that I got
They wanna see me on a stage or
Me left in a grave to rot
I've been overstressin'
'bout overstressin' i lie in bed and think
About this life I manifested
Yet my depression's always yellin' that
I'm destined for regression
Sad obsession with progression
Still they think that I'm
Just desperate for attention
Broke, down about around this
Time just last fall
At therapy tellin' my therapist
I feel so small
Pushed everyone I love away, and fuck
It's all my fault
Is it better to feel like this
Or to feel nothin' at all?
I turn the lights down lonely
Remember back when we would cash
In cans at the grocery
Weren't there when I was drowning but the
First to say "You know me"
So sick of people saying that they
Care and never show me
My grandpa once told me that inside an empty
Mind is where the devil likes to play
And everyday it's all the same
I just stare at an empty page
Ruminate about all the things that have
Piled up on my plate
Time I take control of my brain, know
I can't just pray this away, so

Monster, how should I feel
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Monster, there are voices in the darkness
And they say they won't go

Monster, there are voices in the darkness
And they say they won't go