Witt Lowry - Nevers Road lyrics

Yeah, I think about it quite often
I wonder if you can hear me
Sometimes I pick up on signs that you
Sent to show that you're near me
Sometimes I think about life after
Death and question the theories
I miss your smile and your voice
I still remember it clearly
I wrote a song called "Last Letter"
I put the volume on max
I wonder if you look down on my
Life and get a good laugh
And then tell Grandma and the others
That you're proud you're my Dad
I wish I'd cherished every single
Fuckin' moment we had
Now it's too late, so many
Things I wish I said
Just never had time to say
How can you feel so close
From a million miles away?
It's crazy what can change in
A year, a month, or a day
I know I'm flawed and so "perfect"
Is somethin' I never claim they say
"The strongest storms show
The strongest roots"
I always knew that one lie
Could change a hundred truths
I always cherished when you told me
"I believe in you"
I hope that you can forgive me
For how I treated you thinkin' back
I blamed you for all of my fuckin' demons
You drank another bottle
Could never fathom the reasons
It took too long to get you
The help that you really needed
One day when I win a Grammy
I'll hold it up so you see it i promise
I know you know I'm a man of my word
Lately feelin' less and less
Adapted to handling hurt
Actin' like they know my fuckin' life
'cause they're fans of my work
Others are nice to get what they want
'cause they're fans of my worth
Can't tell the real from the fake
Can't tell the fake from the real
Broken and empty inside
Told me in time I would heal
OCD wreckin' my brain
I don't want nothin' the same
Dropped the whole album at once
Write it all over again
Write it all over again
Write it all over again
Feel like I'm goin' insane
Want to feel good for a change
I keep ignorin' the pain
There is nobody to blame
Tell me they love me for me, then
They throw dirt on my name, damn
"The darkest nights make
The brightest stars"
I tell myself that every time I
Feel like life gets hard
We've come a long fuckin' way
Since our "Kindest Regards"
And still I feel like my whole
Life is just waitin' to start
I could've lost it all in that crash
The lights flash
It's feelin' like something's jabbed
In my back the car's spinnin'
My whole body's cut and covered in glass
And when we stop
I see my stomach slowly turnin' to black
That made me realize my whole life
Is truly fragile at best
Sometimes I stress until I physically
Feel pain in my chest i ruminate
That's like my mind is always stuck on reset
I heard my Grandma's fightin' cancer
Mom just sent me a text
I know we always butted heads
And never saw eye-to-eye but at this rate
I've seen too many in my family die
Apologize for holding grudges
Such a waste of our time
So I just wanna say "I love
You" while you're here and alive
Some people don't know the difference
Of being human and human-being
I'm only lettin' things inside my life
Now that give it meaning
I'm only lettin' things inside my mind
Now that keep me dreaming
I'm only lettin' things inside my heart
Now that keep it beating that's real

Yeah dan told me
"Jump on this beat and let it all spill"
I wonder if I lost it all
If they would call still
Some people tend to forget
But I know we all feel
I put my soul on display and
That's what they call "real"
Stop holdin' on, if it's holding you back
Then let it go
Your grass will always be the greenest
If you let it grow
They said I'll never be anything
Guess you never know
No matter how far we'd go
We started at Nevers Road nevers Road