Witt Lowry, Livingston - The War I’m Scared to Face lyrics
Livingston [Drake Jon Livingston Jr.] Denton, Texas, U.S. 🇺🇸
[Witt Lowry, Livingston - The War I’m Scared to Face lyrics]
Even if you don't, I still remember it all
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
Just give me one more chance
I'll fight the war I'm scared to face
First things first
I know this letter might be long overdue
Just wanna tell you it's been hard
For me to tackle the truth
And watchin' you become a shell of
Who I knew in my youth
You were the glue that kept the
Family from splittin' in two
Hate what you have to go through
I bet you feel so alone
You were my shelter back when
Everything was messy at home
When no one else was there
I knew you'd always answer your phone
Now when they ask you who I am
It hurts you might not know, damn
Guess I remember for us both
Remember when we saw those whales and
You threw up on the boat
Remember spendin' days at Fenway
Those are days I miss the most
Remember how you cracked a smile when
I told you that I wrote
And then you told me you believed
In me and my dream, "Chase it"
That's back when I'd record on
A USB in the basement
And now I'm here helpless and
Honestly fuckin' hate it
I know you hate when I swear
But I don't know how else to say it
I remember all the stories you
Told me 'bout meetin' Gram
I know you still remember her laugh
The touch of her hands
They try to say you can't
Don't think anyone understands
She's a part of who you are like
You're a part of who I am
And damn, when Dad and Gram look down
I wonder if it makes 'em sad
Where the fam's at now
And when I stand up on stage
Where the music is loud and look out
I swear I see the faces out in the crowd
What hurts the most is that you're here
But haven't seen you in years
But not because a lack of tryin'
I want that to be clear
The situation's way more complicated
Than it appears
And when I think about it all
It always brings me to tears
I fear, as your memory fades
And the dementia makes it's way through
Every inch of your brain
You'll forget about me and
All the memories made i'm not okay
I guess what I'm tryin' to say is
Even if you don't, I still remember it all
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
Just give me one more chance
I'll fight the war I'm scared to face
Just know it kills me to feel
Like I let you down
When all I really ever wanted
Was to make you proud
I miss all of the stories and the wisdom
That would spill out of your mouth
Now when we have a conversation
You can barely make a sound
Everything's so different now
I have this hole in my heart
When you moved and Dad passed
The whole fam fell apart
Not havin' either of you here
Has been so terribly hard
The truth is y'all were the light
When my thoughts got dark
I heard you had a birthday and I missed it
I look around the room and not
A single relative's here on Christmas
Sometimes I feel the distance has
Lead to us actin' distant
Nothin' is the same
Things changed in an instant
Ahh, I should prolly call
Always say "I will" but I
Always drop the ball
Damn, you see the truth is I'm
A coward tryna stall the inevitable
Fact one day I'll call and
There'll be nothin' you recall
And I'm appalled that this is
How this all played out
A beautiful mind that we just
Have to watch fade out
See, you're the one who taught me how to
Make a home out of a house
And that happiness is found when you
Live in the right now
Not the future or past
Just want my grandfather back
Woulda hung on to the moments if
I knew they wouldn't last
Just know I'm grateful now for
Every single second we had
It's sad you'll never see a show or
Ever get to see me rap
And that's that, fuck
Sick of feelin' stuck
Sick of feelin' like everybody has given up
Sick of always feelin' like
I'll never be enough
'Cause I tried to wear your shoes
But I could never fill 'em up
I never know a world where I'm
Able to let you go
Even though I know to let go of
The things that I can't control
It's sad you'll never see me with
A family of my own
But know that when that day comes, you'll
Be a hero in our home, so
Even if you don't, I still remember it all
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
I wish I knew the things I told
You'd turn to things you'd forget
I wish I knew the things I told
You'd turn to things you'd forget
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
Just give me one more chance
I'll fight the war I'm scared to face
First things first
I know this letter might be long overdue
Just wanna tell you it's been hard
For me to tackle the truth
And watchin' you become a shell of
Who I knew in my youth
You were the glue that kept the
Family from splittin' in two
Hate what you have to go through
I bet you feel so alone
You were my shelter back when
Everything was messy at home
When no one else was there
I knew you'd always answer your phone
Now when they ask you who I am
It hurts you might not know, damn
Guess I remember for us both
Remember when we saw those whales and
You threw up on the boat
Remember spendin' days at Fenway
Those are days I miss the most
Remember how you cracked a smile when
I told you that I wrote
And then you told me you believed
In me and my dream, "Chase it"
That's back when I'd record on
A USB in the basement
And now I'm here helpless and
Honestly fuckin' hate it
I know you hate when I swear
But I don't know how else to say it
I remember all the stories you
Told me 'bout meetin' Gram
I know you still remember her laugh
The touch of her hands
They try to say you can't
Don't think anyone understands
She's a part of who you are like
You're a part of who I am
And damn, when Dad and Gram look down
I wonder if it makes 'em sad
Where the fam's at now
And when I stand up on stage
Where the music is loud and look out
I swear I see the faces out in the crowd
What hurts the most is that you're here
But haven't seen you in years
But not because a lack of tryin'
I want that to be clear
The situation's way more complicated
Than it appears
And when I think about it all
It always brings me to tears
I fear, as your memory fades
And the dementia makes it's way through
Every inch of your brain
You'll forget about me and
All the memories made i'm not okay
I guess what I'm tryin' to say is
Even if you don't, I still remember it all
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
Just give me one more chance
I'll fight the war I'm scared to face
Just know it kills me to feel
Like I let you down
When all I really ever wanted
Was to make you proud
I miss all of the stories and the wisdom
That would spill out of your mouth
Now when we have a conversation
You can barely make a sound
Everything's so different now
I have this hole in my heart
When you moved and Dad passed
The whole fam fell apart
Not havin' either of you here
Has been so terribly hard
The truth is y'all were the light
When my thoughts got dark
I heard you had a birthday and I missed it
I look around the room and not
A single relative's here on Christmas
Sometimes I feel the distance has
Lead to us actin' distant
Nothin' is the same
Things changed in an instant
Ahh, I should prolly call
Always say "I will" but I
Always drop the ball
Damn, you see the truth is I'm
A coward tryna stall the inevitable
Fact one day I'll call and
There'll be nothin' you recall
And I'm appalled that this is
How this all played out
A beautiful mind that we just
Have to watch fade out
See, you're the one who taught me how to
Make a home out of a house
And that happiness is found when you
Live in the right now
Not the future or past
Just want my grandfather back
Woulda hung on to the moments if
I knew they wouldn't last
Just know I'm grateful now for
Every single second we had
It's sad you'll never see a show or
Ever get to see me rap
And that's that, fuck
Sick of feelin' stuck
Sick of feelin' like everybody has given up
Sick of always feelin' like
I'll never be enough
'Cause I tried to wear your shoes
But I could never fill 'em up
I never know a world where I'm
Able to let you go
Even though I know to let go of
The things that I can't control
It's sad you'll never see me with
A family of my own
But know that when that day comes, you'll
Be a hero in our home, so
Even if you don't, I still remember it all
You were my shelter from the
Rain when it'd fall
I would call, but never came
I'm not perfect, but I swear I've changed
I still hear your voice
It ricochets off these walls
Give me the words and I'll explain
Why I faltered from grace
And for all I hold for blame
I wish I knew the things I told
You'd turn to things you'd forget
I wish I knew the things I told
You'd turn to things you'd forget