Wyler Adair - 3AM lyrics

Yo, I'm writing this at 3AM
Why the fuck did I decide to
Pick up the pen again
Yeah, and loves a feeling that
I won't ever get
Standing on the edge of the world
 always feeling regret yeah
See, I don't handle pain well
But I guess that's what's expected when
You're chained to a wall
Yeah, that's what my minds like
Never seeing daylight always being in fright
My mind can never be right

Falling short of your calls
Tryna assess all those wounds
Left back at my place
And we can't find your shoes
We're lost and we're found
Tryna dig out of this ground
Got demons all around
Now we're bound to look down
Depressive states yeah, I got 50 of 'em
They come all around
And make me forget where I'm from
'Cause they don't want you to
Act like a normal guy
They wanna make you crazy
Make you traumatised
They wanna make you the one that time forgot
Make it seem like you left this
Earth way before the jot
Yeah, 'cause I can't afford the money
For all of this therapy
And even if I could I only
Get seen once a week what am I suppose to do
In all that time inbetween
What if I have a negative
Thought with obstructional means
Yeah, 'cause depressions taking over my mind
I don't know what I'm doing half the time
My mind is constantly pressing decline
I feel like it's the end of my time

It don't matter how much you
Have in that bank account
The pain will always find it's
Way to make you count
How many blessings you been sharing
How many blessings you been keeping
And how many times did you
Do the right amount
Yeah, I often think what if
My life turned around
Would I still live with a massive frown
Yeah, my mental didn't get any better
I just got better at hiding it
Yeah, I write my best when I'm at my lowest
Maybe that's why the sad songs
Always pop off the most
But I can't keep living like this

Today was the absolute worst day ever
And don't try to convince me that
There's something good in every day
Because, when you take a closer look
This world is a pretty evil place even if
Some goodness does shine through
Once in a while
Satisfaction and happiness don't last
And it's not true that
It's all in the mind and heart because
True happiness can be attained
Only if one's surroundings are good
It's not true that good exists
I'm sure you can agree that the reality
Creates my attitude
It's all beyond my control
And you'll never in a million
Years hear me say that
Today was a very good day
Now read it from bottom to top