Wyler Adair - Suicide Note lyrics

Yeah i don't know where I'm at
I don't know what life holds
All I know is I'm at the end of the road
Life's been cool pretty fucking glamorous
But never, not once
Was the shit an act for the cameras
I've been through too much
To feel any emotion
And once I'm done with this song
My body will have no motion
To find me you'll do best
Searching through the ocean
Yeah I'm cutting myself everyday
All I want is for one person to pray
I might not even see my next birthday
Please, go prepare the ashtray
Cos in a bit I'll be going away
Yeah I been praying for someone to save me
It ain't easy to go through shit daily
Too dumb to even realise what I've become
Yeah right now I'm just feeling numb
They say life is a thing that'll surprise ya
Ahhh they couldn't be more right
Give me a mic, put me in the spotlight yeah

See this music for me, it is therapy
I don't let nothing try to get to me
So many people having their doubts about me
I guess they don't see the
Real potential in me
But hey what am I suppose to do?
When everyday I feel like I'm
Locked up in a zoo
Yeah, too many insecurities to cope
I'm better off just going
And preparing the rope
Everyday I'm losing hope
Yeah, this is my suicide note

So, I wanna explain what music is to me
Music to me is therapy, whenever I feel a
Particular emotion I turn it into lyrics
Although those lyrics don't always make
It into official songs music is a way for me
To express myself without limit's
Music is the most powerful tool in existence
Without music, right now, I'd be dead