Xana - 19 lyrics

I don't know when it started
I think that one day I just
Woke up in love with you

God damn, she's got herself a girlfriend now
Well, I guess she finally came out
Wish I coulda waited around
Maybe it coulda been me
It's all good
I'm always wanting more than I should
And I bet you'd really love me if you could
'Cause if the wishes on
My candles came true
It woulda been you

We were nineteen and the world
Was hard to please
My daddy didn't understand
That I just couldn't love a man
The way I love you
It's all that I do

But it be would nice if
You would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more?
It would be fun if you and me coulda won
Walked off together into the sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet if you had married me
But it's all good baby, we were only nineteen

Just promise me one thing
Don't go getting married
'Cause I'm going to cross oceans
For you one day

God damn, I'm stuck on this once again
And I don't know if we can be friends
One look at you and I'm a mess
Well, I dug out your old letters
They still make me weak
And I know it's been years but
It killed me to leave
And I know it killed you too
Midsummer afternoon on Redwood Avenue
If I could hold you once again
I wouldn't let you loose
I wouldn't make you choose
I wouldn't make you choose
I wish I was ready for you now

But it be would be nice if
You would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more?
It would be fun if you and me coulda won
(Coulda won)
Walked off together into the sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet if you had married me
But it's all good baby
We were only nineteen

We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
I still think about it
Do you think about it?
(How)

We grew up, we moved out
We fucked up, fucked around
Got a job, made some money
Blew it all, it's kinda funny
You don't talk to your dad
I don't talk when I'm mad
We get scared, don't admit it
I don't care, you don't feel it
Breaking hearts just for fun 'cause we could
It's so dumb
Fall in love and too young
Fall apart in my arms
And I know that it hurts
'cause I feeling so far
My darling I promise
Ain't this what you wanted?
What you wanted?

And it would be nice if
You would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more? Oh
And it would be fun if you and me coulda won
Walked off together into the sun
And you would call me the one
(You can call me, baby you can call me)
And it would be sweet if you would marry me
But it's all good baby, yeah, it's all good
It's all good baby, yeah, it's all

I would've loved
Would've loved you forever
It's never enough but I wanted it to be
Every night you were sleeping in my sweater
Its never enough but you wanted it to be
I would've love, would've loved you forever
It's never enough but I wanted it to be
Every night you were sleeping in my sweater
It's never enough, but you wanted it to be
Oh, you wanted it to be
Mmm, mmm
I'm dragging on the ending of
This letter because I'm afraid
Afraid that once I stop writing
That's it for our story
I hope that's not the case
A love like ours never really goes away