XXXHXAILO - December lyrics

Trying to escape all my fears
I can’t help that I want
To get away from here
The pain always makes me feel so cold
I’m so broken but I still
Have a heart of gold
And they miss the old me oh my dear
I hate that girl I used to be for some years
And I was afraid to let go
But I am afraid to let
Them know that i’m suffocating
I’m dying, i’m in my dirty room crying, oh

I was supposed to be dead in December
But I survived a little longer
Now I am getting better
Don’t want to die in December
But if I do please remember me
I hope one day I will be free
Trying to escape all my fears
I can’t help that I want
To get away from here
The pain always makes me feel so cold
I’m so broken but I still
Have a heart of gold
And they miss the old me, oh my dear
I hate that girl I used to be for some years
And I was afraid to let go
Now i’m not afraid to let them know