XXXHXAILO - Dreams lyrics

I wanna disappear far away from here
I can't stand it here the end is near
With all these thoughts, i'm not okay
Pop a xan, cut the pain away
And I dream of you
That's the only thing that will get me thru
The night
And it's cold at night, worse when I cry
And I really try
Oh I really try to fucking be alright
But I can't seem
To make past a week of being clean
Do you feel me? Do you know me?
You know I wanna be okay
I think I cry everyday
But I see her and I remember her
And it makes me think
Would I be, better off dead too?
Better off dead too would I be?
Save me, i'm falling
Deep and deeper, i'm calling for you
Or anyone is there anyone?
Tell me it will be okay
Tell me i'll see better days
I go to sleep, wondering if I should stay
In the daytime, I feel fine
But in the night time I don't feel alive
The drugs help me, but they don't help you
Don't wanna hurt them but it
Seems like I always do
I say i'm sorry then get myself
Back to good and then i break, I break again
I'll dream of you, your touch helps me too
But I break but I try again maybe
One day i'll be happy again
My whole life's a lie, dying inside
Feels like a game, I wanna fade away
It will never change, I will never change
But if you help me maybe I will be okay
I love you, i'll try today
To be better, but I will just break
Will I break?