Pusha T, YBN Cordae - Nightmares Are Real lyrics

Ok, ugh
I can tell you how I first started in this rap shit
Mama kicked a nigga out the house, felt fantastic
Told my homies "If you got a couch, know I'm crashin"
Worried 'bout my future, couldn't care about the past tense
Lost my grandmother and I haven't been the same since
Start to get anxious, I'm tired of this lame shit
Tired of the struggle, living family in the subdivision
Ramen noodles, drawing doodles, wasn't in my fucking vision
But who's fault is that? Tryna stay all intact
Fightin' all my demons, they be schemin', but I'm crawling back
And eventually flying, lately been mentally crying
Niggas resenting me, I am not for the industry lying

Life's a dream, but nothing is a fairytale
Do you love me? I can barely tell
'Cause I'm up and down, been all around
Nobody's calling now

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
'Cause I know what I've been through
But I still, ugh, I do it all over again
And my life is so sinful, but through times, the good guys always win

I could tell you how I first started in this rap shit
Eighth grade, back-flipping on a mattress
Ninth grade, pack doing gymnastics
Tenth grade, somersaulting all them crack flips
Asterisks, skip school, recorded with The Neptunes
We was making high-school classics
Before I took a kilo and I rapped it, I wrapped it
Around the funeral with the casket
Coke avalanche like a landslide
Only grew my hair this long because my man died
Collect calls on them landlines, I press five
To tell her 'bout the new test drive and talk fly (Ooh)

Life's a dream, but nothing is a fairytale
Do you love me? I can barely tell
'Cause I'm up and down, been all around
Nobody's calling now

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
'Cause I know what I've been through
But I still, ugh, I do it all over again
And my life is so sinful, but through times, the good guys always win