Sarah Juers, ​nobigdyl., Jesstaylo - ​shadow lyrics

It goes dark and it is most definitely a
Moment of utter disorientation
Utter lostness, no warmth, no life
No movement

Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah
Love you so much that the issues I
Used to hold on to are nothing
They're minuscule
Love you so much that I make it up
To you whenever I flip like reciprocals
Love you so much that I blocked all
My exes, I blocked all the exit's
I'm with you forever
Love you so much that I don't even trip when
They say that I'm sick and they ridiculed
Love you so much that I gave up
Addiction, I stopped all the clickin'
And now it's all clickin'
Love you so much that I changed my old
Number so all their attempts are just pitiful
Love you so much that I stopped sayin' thot
Now I see women as God's children
I see their souls and their hearts glisten
Look at them glow like they're Marge Simpson
Love you so much that I save my receipts and
I watch what I eat when I'm gettin' food
Love you so much that I give up my seat even
When I am beat and not in the mood
Love you so much that sometimes
I lose sleep 'cause I
Can't come to terms with what I did to you
Love you so much that I ask God
To help me smile when I'm cynical
I face these passing waves
A lonely cast away i fight my battle
Beside my shadow

Hate me so much for the pain that I caused
To the ones that I truly hold dear
Hate me so much that it comes out in tears
Hate me so much I don't look in the mirror
Hate me so much that I slip into
Fantasies darker than Black Mirror seasons
Sometimes I feel like just leavin'
Don't need a number of reasons
Hate me so much I retreat into sleep
I'm even hidin' from Jesus
Feel like I'm livin' with
Demons, inside my closet, Are legions
Hate me so much when I'm hurt then I'm
Happy 'cause I tell myself I deserve it
I'm in my bed with the serpents
And they told me that I'm worthless
Hate me so much that I don't wanna listen
When you tell me I'm a good person
But you don't give up so easy, fervent
Remindin' me of my purpose
Hate me so much but you're
Teachin' me love and
I think that I'm startin' to learn it
Written in crimson and cursive
Quiet and curious, Perfect

I face these passing waves
A lonely cast away i fight my battle
Beside my shadow i face these passing waves
A lonely cast away i fight my battle
Beside my shadow