$uicideboy$ - Eulogy lyrics

(You did good, $lick)
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it,  I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I,  when I
When I die, fuck it,  I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I

Three AM, drinkin' with this
Pistol on my lap
Uh
Six medications
Guess there ain't no fixin' that
It's that broken motherfucker
Knuckling 'till I relapse
If I die
They might cry 'till they inherit my stacks
Cold fuckin' world
Tell me what's the word?
Only time I speak my heart is
When the message come out slurred
People pleasing
Always eager to fix
A motherfucker's problems
Leave me at the bottom
More comfortable with Gomorrah and Sodom
I chew on fent and rot my teeth
All for moments of peace and slow heart beats
Got offered, a God I dissed
Who gon' save me?
All I could do is laugh
And say "C'est la vie"
Woe, is me, I know you get the picture
This type of pain will earn you seven figures
Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors
This shit is scripture and for what
I got there's no elixirs
Feel like I'm not enough
Find myself playing my dad like
Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf
My mama crying as she watch the clock
Text my bro I love him
Even though he got my number blocked
I would give up everything to
See my brothers clean
No second thoughts, it's fuck the
Cost or take me
Leave 'em be
Take my money
Say you love me even if it's lies
That connection's so depressing but
It's all I got

(When I die) When I die
Just play this fucking song
I was never meant for this
Been tortured just to carry on
(When I die)
Couple coupes
Lotta zeroes and a couple homes
None of it did shit for me
Cock the pistol and now I'm-
(When I die)

Aight
Head in the clouds
It look like it might rain again
Always holdin' back tears
It's how I manage to pay the rent
Pay the bills
Place the bet so I don't
Have to chase the check
Verified through $uicide
The glitz and glamour came and went
Wash my fucking soul
There's still that one stain is kept
I just wanna be loved
The root of all my pain
Except the type that comes with age and death
I can finally lay and rest
I'm owed a little peace
And I'm ready to erase the debt (I, I, I, I)
I never planned on showing the world the
Face that hides behind the mask
I always thought the last thing I would
Hear would be the gun's blast
Fill in the black hole in my chest with
Sex and drugs, but it never lasts
It never lasts
Shit, two years ago Big Pharma should
Have just cashed me out
Now I got a deviated septum
I'ma just rat me out
Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed
All they see is my set
All they see is lack of debt
All they see is what they wanna see
Calling me a wannabe
I don't wanna be in misery
Exit the pharmacy
Get a girl I wanna see
I wanna see how hard I bleed
When she rips out my fucking heart
Enter the pharmacy
I'm a private person and take
Pride in my verses
Fuck your whole opinion
I don't care if it worsens
I'll ruin my reputation and make
Sure it's on purpose
Fuck this shit

(When I die) When I die
Just play this fucking song
I was never meant for this
Been tortured just to carry on
(When I die)
Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes
None of it is shit for me
Cock the pistol and now I'm gone
(When I die)

Fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it,  I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I