360 - Subtle Way of Suicide lyrics

Uh, I've spent a lot of time
Working over the past years
Turning sober, bourbon over the last beer
Intoxicated, contemplating in conversation
Lose my feet, chopping
Changing my occupation
Not today though, too many hours choking hard
I finished work at five and head
Straight to the local bar
With open arms while I'm talking
To the mates I see
They ain't my real friends but they
Suffer the same as me
We just drown our sorrows as
We waste our green
Pretend we're having fun but really
Yo it's make belief
It makes me see as I drink to myself
I'll buy you drinks cause I'd rather
That than drink by myself
And I had a dream too i wanted my passion
But through lack of support I
Chose a job that's relaxin'
And I regret it now
Why not follow my dreams for?
I'm another robot but yo I
Should have been more

It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide)
Life ain't worth livin inside
This blurred vision
It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide)
I'm drinking away while sitting in pain
It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide)
Yeah, I should have been more and
Work for my dreams more
It's just the subtle way of suicide (suicide)
Yo it's the only way out, uh

Yo, I remember bein' raised on
What real life is i've got a wife, kids
A job and still feel like shit
Yeah I've got a job
But, I want more cause who wants
Responsibilities for shit you don't
Have love for and even though I chop and
Change every job's the same
I'm gonna try to raise my kids
The way I wasn't raised
And yeah I know I've got a great son
But, if I haven't had a happy life
Then how can I create one?
And in their teens not be ashamed
To say they love their dad
And not think of their
Childhood as something bad
And understand why I'm not something great
It's cause I work in a job
For years that I fuckin' hate
I could have been something
Had the crazy skills
Now all I work for is drinking
It to pay the bills and for my son if you
Follow your dreams but die
Don't worry it's the best thing
At least you tried
And it's the subtle way of suicide