A.D. Carson, Bad Dreams - The Song I Should Have Written lyrics

"I’m going to improvise, like a writer
On some assumptions
And, though I feel a little uneasy in
Doing this and saying this nevertheless
What a writer is obliged, at some point
To realize
Is that he’s involved in a language
Which he has to Change"

He walked from just above rock bottom
To not stardom
But starting to understand my problems
Are probably all my own
And know, homie, I’m holding my own
Owning my own plan like the man
I was destined to be a dot desires the finer
Denies the defining
He lies where the diamonds you find
In the rough are stuffed
No fucks given if it’s just
Living then live yours i’ll live mine
And we’ll cross courses in due time
If not, then no bother
I’m hardly at odds wit it
I chill a homebody attracted to odd women
Party wit’ gods nope, not church
Not a façade i read books for fun
Make students out of a squad
It’s not a game
Not the same shit you’re used to
I do it cause I find it suitable – and
Hope you will decide it’s beautiful
But never my aim is to make what you
Want how you want when you want it
I make what I like when I
Write i’m alright when it’s right
So I’m writing this here in this moment

So, fuck what you want
I write what I what I write
And I’m cool so what if you don’t
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like
So, fuck what you want
I write what I what I write
And I’m cool so what if you don’t
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like

Every time they say
"I’m different" I hear ‘em but I don’t listen
I’m near ‘em, but I don’t feel like we
Close to the same position
I spit like I’m on a mission
To kill ‘em a mercenary, i hit ‘em
With verses dare ‘em to
Stand toe-to-toe wit’ me i’m ready
But they ain’t really ‘bout that do
It ‘cause they do it
They be doing what they thinking
Everybody else be doing that’s stupid
I’m on that do what I be wanting to hear
So, if you like it, then that’s cool
‘cause I got more of it here
And If you don’t, then that’s alright
You can move on to the rear
It ain’t my job to make you
Love it if you don’t, then it’s clear
So it’s back to the black hoodie
Back to the black fitted
Back to the basics hate it or
Take it it’s black business it’s not a game
Not the same shit you’re used to
I do it cause I find it suitable – and
Hope you will decide it’s beautiful
But never my aim is to make what you
Want how you want when you want it
I make what I like when I
Write i’m alright when it’s right
So I’m writing this here in this moment

So, fuck what you read
I write what I what I write
And I know, but fuck what she said
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like
Fuck what you read
I write what I what I write
And I know, but fuck what she said
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like

No shade, but this rap shit’s so played
And filled with actors
And scripts it’s like Hamlet
Quite the cast of characters

I just want to do what I do, and I look at us
And say, "Do it
No pretense no pre-rinse no pretend
No free days no weekends"
Know he spends - notes and
Ends - with lonely friends
From the start until the dope beat ends
And while I’m at it, that’s
Preme on the track, give him a hand for
Keys, strings, kick drum
Snare it’s just a sample
Of what I’m saying we do, and we got ample
Ammo joe, we cool like a pack of Camels
It’s not a game
Not the same shit you’re used to
I do it cause I find it suitable – and
Hope you will decide it’s beautiful
But never my aim is to make what you
Want how you want when you want it
I make what I like when I
Write i’m alright when it’s right
So I’m writing this here in this moment

So, fuck what you think
I write what I what I write
Do you drink what you drink
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like
Fuck what you think
I write what I what I write
Do you drink what you drink
I like what I like i’m impatient
And blatantly making my statements despite
Any space of complacency i write what I like

"I dropped into a silence
In which I heard for the
First time really heard and
Began to be able to try to deal with
The beat of the language of the people
Who had produced me
I was able to hear that music…"