A.L. Laureate, Anjuli Stars - Here It Lies (I Wish) lyrics

And i wish that i could be born again
Redo all my wrongs and do it all again
And i wish that i could be born again
You wonder why just look up to the sky
Im calling

Im dead the passageway to hell is wide open
Heaven calls from afar but god is soft spoken
The soundtrack to satan is amusing
Hell was a possibility i made
The trip all inclusive
Low self esteem tagged along
In bottles of alcohol
Killin my every thought poison was chosen
Rewrote my life story made it bitter
Subservient to the urge of this sinner
I was given love i took it for granite
Never accomplished things cause
Of personal entrapment
My souls torn face disfigured
I smell the brimstone burning
My voice quivers i let out a whimper
The surface opened i was lead to a picture
I couldn't believe what it was
Its me in a casket so i
See what wishful thinking does

And i wish that i could be born again
Redo all my wrongs and do it all again
And i wish that i could be born again
You wonder why just look up to the sky
Im calling

Opinions and theories became disoriented
Dangling through the cobwebs of the past
And at last i feel death first hand
With no need to dilute any
Method that it used
I look at my body the blood drippin down it
Disinterest in life lies kept me frownin
I took deception a tad further
Im now here playing back the last 23 years
My dad wasn't with me the moment i was born
My moms showed me love i still felt alone
My girl was my world
Can't believe i let her go tears turn bloody
Trying to reveal sumthing
How could i uncover emptyness within
My best option is a paper and a pen
Last seconds of life i end my last writes
With a wounded heart hoping
Repentment will suffice